Monday, December 27, 2010

My Christmas?

I was working this day but it was kinda good to be workday, I got christmas feast at the job and not everyone gets that? ^^

Late Christmas Post

Merry Christmas, I gonna make a different post than usual christmas posts you have seen all over the world.
Should be 2nd but I take this one first because it's "closer" to my reality..

1st: It's more of less snowstorms in many countries like Sweden, during this our travel network breaks and people start to complain. Of course, we should be prepared but if we aren't prepared enough I just ask you to show to patience. I'm sick of hearing complains that your train is late, you can't get to dinner and so on.
Why did you show up so late, like last minutewise?
If you ask yourself when you are waiting for you train, who is out there making this network smooth any other day? Have you ever think of these people, THEY are making your day without you notice. These people work to make you able to celebrate your christmas by sacrificing their own, they sacrifice for the greater good of this countries.
As well as people working within care/nursing, these people also works at "your" important day. That they work doesn't mean it's not important to them, they just see the big picture.
And when your train is stuck somewhere or the rails are frozen, think about those shoveling people. If it really was able to do with only machines you wouldn't stand there complaining, it's actually a lot human shoveling and if you didn't know the rails isn't short. You are inside a warm train station when they are outside in minus 20*C, they do that because NO ONE else would do it.
How would the picture look like if EVERYONE didn't work this day? I believe you would be sitting at home and looking into a corner that suits you best.

2nd: I wrote on facebook: Merry Christmas! Take a moment and think about those who can't celebrate cause of unfair reasons ex: children without family.

There's a lot of people not only children out there that also wants to celebrate festivals like christmas but many, too many don't have the opportunity to. Once again, these reasons are so many and to be honest a lot of them are easily solved. These people doesn't even wish much and still they get like nothing.
Please do like me, donate money or somehow help people who can't live like us. I don't mean sharing belief, I mean being able to choose what to believe in.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Song of the Day: 無緣罪

I newly discovered this singer by a friend, I think she's pretty good :)

Vincy Chan (泳兒) with song 無緣罪

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Fix you

I almost forgot this band called Coldplay, here's a song I really love.
Stuffs goes the way it wants and you only hope it goes little more like you want.

If you need me, you all know where to find me.
I will try my best for you, as I always been doing.

Song of the Day: 明天以後

Raymond Lam & Vincy Chan

Mandarin music video:


Cantonese live:

Friday, December 17, 2010

Little Birthday Party

I couldn't sleep until 05:00 today and I slept to about 13:00.. Been playing some World of Warcraft, at the moment I'm trying to get some PvP gear on my druid Numeria (85) and leveling my gnome warrior Danti (84).

But! Today my elder brother having a little birthday party at the restaurant, so I will soon be on my way there. Although I won't be there for long, going to work at 08:00 tomorrow.

My friend Björn is back from his asian trip, he was in Vietnam for some months studying and ended the trip with four days in Hong Kong. I went to Playz with him and some other friends, after playing some hour we ate hamburgers and walked home (yes, in this snowing winder).
He linked me a song they played a lot in Vietnam and it's stuck in my head XD

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Give me DNS..

I hate when my internet dies and says: We can not find a new DNS at the moment..

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

December Birthdays

Happy Birthday my little brother and elder brother!

I went to webhallen and bought some stuffs to him with my friend Josefine, who was in Stockholm for a jobinterview. We tried to find some more gifts for my brothers (my elder brother birthday is today), and some for christmas but we didn't find any.
Then we decided to drink some hot chocolate to warm us and wait until her train arrived.

Today I went with my little brother to find something for my elder brother, at the end we bought three clothes from HM.

Dinner at East (13 dec)

It was a really amazing dinner at a restaurant called East, my brother old work, we got a table in a separated room (a little VIP). I'd like the local but not the newer design they have, they had a lot of dots everywhere in different sizes. I know how dots work, they are really hard to handle, I mean how many stuffs with dots actually look good?

The buffet consisted of random east asian dishes from China, Thailand, Japan and Korea. I started with some sushi and sashimi then I went to some noodles, gyoza, egg rolls, fried octopus. Unfortonely there was a lot of hot dishes and I can't eat so many hot dishes (yeah, I'm a weakling) but I tried them out. The only hot dish I liked was a thai soup else I ate a lot of noodles, gyoza, rols and fried stuffs :)
Finally, I ate a lot of sweets like panacotta, small chocolate cakes and icecreams.

Thanks my dear little brother for a nice evening.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Song of the Day: Bleeding Love

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

But somethin' happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground, found somethin' true

Trying hard not to hear, but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt

Uhm, christmas already?

Hm, this year have really fly by fast. When I think about what I've done this year, it seems to be little but compared to where I was before I've gone far, very far.
I studied at spring and got a practice at a short-time home for disabled teenagers. After that my teacher recommended me to a summerjob as a carer and I worked there from june to august, jumping in as back-up carer nowdays.
I worked a month with the swedish election, lately I started to work as personal assistant.
As career point of view, it just getting better.

How about love? Don't ask me about that, it have been messy and.. well, there's nothing to talk about. I just leave it be at moment, seems like it's the best way right now.

Ow well, I wasn't really going to talk about this! I'm going to christmas dinner with my family today at my little brother old work, East. We are off to go soon, I hope the food is good :3

I don't have any new year promises for next year yet, but I know I made most for this year at least :)

Friday, December 10, 2010

5 = 2?

Well, I'm work now, I should be sleeping but I can't. So I'm playing little WoW, it says the restart is 05:00 but Argent Dawn EU died already at 02:00.. What am I going to do?

I'm having watch so I can sleep, I already have a "phone" that will ring if I'm needed..

Like earlier yesterday morning when I was on my way to work, SL (Stockholm subway) said the next train was incoming around 1min. That was the longest 1min I've ever seen, took around 15min before it came, so yes I came late to my job -.-

And now I read that the WoW servers are supposed to be down for 15min, passed 34mins so far.. XD I think someone sent a rat to the servers and killed the cables! Damn gnomes, they so really deserve this quest called "gnomebliteration".

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

I don't understand

I can more or less understand people, but I've never been sure about you..
I don't understand you..
Anyway, you shouldn't cry because of me..

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Friday, December 3, 2010

Song of the Day: White Flag

Dido - White Flag

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All I was then will be there still
I'll let it pass and hold my tongue
And you will think that I've moved on

Heartless

Everything is going fine at the moment, I got a new job as personal assistant with 24hour workdays including sleep. It feels really good and I gonna start at sunday/monday.
I've been tired, both mentally and physical but I can still do stuffs pretty good, I don't know why. Then I can't sleep and when I sleep I sleep like normal O_O

And about "love", I just want to be heartless for awhile. What I mean with that is I'm going to leave my heart somewhere (I know the mind controls love, but it sounds better by saying heart :)
Because right now, I'm not in mood to think too much about it. After couple of years letting stuffs end up what I believe is right, lately I've been thinking: "Do it good or don't bother do it at all". But I'm back to chapter one, I will leave this for awhile and if it's meant to be then my heart will be revealed by you. I don't have the courage to ask you, it feels unfair, I don't fear anything except however losing you again.

Except all this, I'm longing to do it good at my new job and I'm longing for World of Warcraft: Cataclysm. Gonna hurry to work as a waiter today, see you all later!

2 0 1 0 - 1 2 - 0 7

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Song of the Day: My left eye sees the ghost

Sammi Cheng - My left eye sees the ghost

Live version (it's the same song but I don't know why they have different titles >_<)


Video version

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Guildwars 2

I'd play alot of Guildwars, I like the soft playstyle and deep storyline, a little bit like the "Diablo" series by Blizzard. I was introduced by A at the time she didn't start with World of Warcraft yet, we played it for awhile and it was always relaxing.

I really like the way you can config your character look, a little more than you can do in WoW. I like the skill system when you can only use X amount of skills at the same time which gives plenty of combinations.
I did like World of Warcraft to insert this craft system too, all items shouldn't be crafted by players and it shouldn't just be direct drop either. By gathering and crafted by NPC, it's somewhere in the middle.

With different setup of skills for each players, gives a great difference between players although you play the same class. You can contribute this however you want and I was very happy with it.
I'm really longing for this free MMORPG, they really kick out all those fee required MMOs that fails out there! I haven't played GW2 at all but I really hope they kinda stay to their own visions, and not doing like everyone which just make a more expensive "WoW" but still worse or just making good graphic but totally skip the player experience.

Song of the Day: MK Ultra

Muse - MK Ultra


Remember, it's always complicated

Friday, November 26, 2010

Song of the Day: In the Mirror

Twisted Machine - In the Mirror

Watching myself in the mirror
The face makes me fear
In the darkness I can't fall asleep
Only to wipe the tears
Anxious mood slowly takes
To the edge of the precipice
On the face of tears
Time is leaving trace


Friday, November 19, 2010

Things I'd like to buy!?

Things I want to buy, but I don't really have place for them at the moment. Maybe, I can buy some of them?

If I bought all glass and cups I'm in love with, my house would be made of them!
6 for 49SEK


A really smart and simple designed bed, you can use it as bunk or double bed!
But do cost 2295SEK, is that much? Need to look around! ^^


I can found pretty cans!
A set of 3 different sizes for 35SEK

Song of the Day: Be Yourself

Audioslave - Be Yourself

At the moment I give myself and some people out there this song.
Try to get some sleep, bad sleep during a long period can damage your brain making your memory bad for a example!

I had a call today from a job, they want to interview me on monday :)

Even when you've paid enough
Been pulled apart or been held up
With every single memory of good or bad
Faces of luck
Don't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose


Thursday, November 18, 2010

Song of the Day: Where Do We Draw The Line

Poets of the Fall - Where Do We Draw The Line

I'm little bit confused about my life at the moment, I want to do what I feel for.
Although I'm doing good things, they also have consequences.
Like something I heard before: If you can choose, choose wisely.

So why do we keep up this charade
How do we tell apart the time to leave from the time to wait


Saturday, November 13, 2010

Song of the Day: Tears and Rainbows

Olivia Lufkin - Tears and Rainbows

A really calm and wonderful song, I usually listen to this one when I want to sleep :)

Come be as one
Come be as one
And fall in love
In love, in love, in love


Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Long time no see my friend

Today I woke up around 2pm, ate some lunch and went out around 4pm. I was a little bit nervous, however, I met my friend Lon that I haven't seen for like a year! We went to drink some coffee (I bought my hot chocolate as usual), we talked about what we been doing lately.
After awhile we went to webhallen to buy Civilization V and we went home. It takes him around an hour to school so he was kinda tired ^^ Well yeah, I would have been too.

It's always nice to see friends again, to see them being well :)

Friday, November 5, 2010

Priestess Namida

I've wanted to make a priest for awhile, but hybrids/healers wasn't good at leveling. It goes really slow if you don't choose the damage talent tree, I prefer to play something than damage dealer if I can.
So finally, 4.0 was released and the new talent system is amazing. You get a early taste of the talent tree as level 10 by awarding a "specialization skill", the talent tree is also not complicated like before, it's simple pick what you want.

Here's a picture of my priestess Namida.

I'm a Draenei Priest, Discipline, I love the skills "penance" and "archangel" that gives you wings on use :)
It's feels more new character (no matter alt or new to WoW) friendly with the new talent tree, you can relax and doesn't need to be afraid of choosing wrong class or wait too long before you can play you class for real.

Song of the Day: Endless Love

Jackie Chan & Kim Hee Seon - Endless Love

Song from movie "The Myth", a little more serious Jackie Chan in a sweet love story. I found a video with subtitles and karaoke!

The love in our hearts is the only never changing myth


Thursday, November 4, 2010

Song of the Day: Locking Up the Sun

Poets of the Fall - Locking Up the Sun

Volunteers to face the fears, can we be sensible

iihh!

I think I need to go to my skin doctor again, when I woke up I just realized the skin around mouth and cheek was really dry. I hurt a little bit when I almost fully opened my mouth, some really small papercuts it seemed. Never happened like this before, when I usually get dry my whole body gets dry at fairly same level.

Like I always say, well, it will be fine. And yes, I don't too long now before I see a doctor!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Song of the Day: Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Leona Lewis - Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Cos all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out


Late night cinema

Well, I went to cinema with my brother after saturday work, so called "night cinema". We decided to watch Saw 3D because I wasn't in mood to watch Due Date.
The movie had a really powerful introduction and after that someone in the cinema screams: What the hell have you tricked me into!? I guess not everyone knew what kind of movies the Saw series is.
I'm not in mood to do a presentation, I can only recommend you to see this movie if you have watched earlier chapters and liked it. Those who haven't seen any Saw, I recommend you to at least watch the first one before you watch this one. It might be good as first time too, but I believe it's much better if you seen this kind before.

I read somewhere that Chester (singer in the band: Linkin Park) was acting in this movie, it was quite funny to know that's him when you see him in the movie ^_^ I guess alot there didn't have any clue who that guy was, maybe a random?

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Song of the Day: Undisclosed Desires

Muse - Undisclosed Desires

I want to recognise your beauty's not just a mask

I care about you

I don't care about my stuffs
I care about you, because I'm your friend
Take care

Friday, October 29, 2010

I'm not perfect, neither are you

Sometimes it seems hard to love someone, is it true love to let them be when you are afraid to hurt them when you confront them?
How far can you go being honest? I believe you often believe your opinion about dit and dat is right, when you see things scaled in two you miss alot, you often miss the most important point in that matter. Many people likes to hear good or bad, but I have found out many things can't be sorted into these two selections. Like if someone ask you if that person looks good with those clothes, many people just say either excellent or ugly. They seem to be straight honest, but they don't know what looks good or bad, can you truly decide that so fast?

Well, I'm always a fool. I never lie, I'm always honest. So when I for example say something looks good it looks better than neutral which is better than bad, some people believe I'm not honest but I just have a larger scale of opinions.

Another example is democracy, when you do your speak of what your party stands for. Most of these party don't have any high level in cooperate, they mostly say how stupid other people are and how smart they are. For me it just sounds like another kid fight, think about it. When the election is over they still poke each other in the eyes and doesn't want to cooperate, they prolly want the country best but are they doing it? If you really want your country best you accept your win or loss and cooperate if needed to find solutions instead of poking each other half of the time.

There's few things that can make me mad and angry, but it doesn't mean I don't have the right to be. Often (almost every time) I get angry, people just snatch me and say I'm negative etc but they do have the right to be without anyone to complain.
Tho I easily get frustrated and can hold my frustration quite long before ending up endlessly mad, I hate being helpless and that is my biggest reason I become frustrated.
Let me help. I know how I am myself, I sometimes become a shell, and I need help although that happens. So maybe, something works out?
Well, good night, a long day tomorrow for me..
A rose for tomorrow.

Song of the Day: Chizuru

The Gazette - Chizuru

One of my favorite song ever and once again I knew this song on bass
I really like how emotional and powerful this song is


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Another night

I've been looking for some works, and like usually I don't find many interesting enough. I mean, I can work with quite alot. Give me something to do! :)

Song of the Day: Hysteria

Muse - Hysteria

I love the bass intro and I actually knew how to play this song once.
Feels like I should relearn it, will take little time since I knew it once :)


Monday, October 25, 2010

Song of the Day: Waiting for the End

Linkin Park - Waiting for the End

This was not what I had planned
It's out of my control


Returner

I've been away for long, I've been busy and a little bit tired of everything.
I worked as sorter at the swedish election on september, after that I've been traveling a little bit outside Stockholm. Yeah, that's what I been doing.
I bought some new clothes like a scarf, two t-shirts and two hoodies but still I haven't found any shoes, I need shoes. I realized most of my clothes are black, gray?
I like those colors but I want more colors so the scarf is like full white, blue, red lines. One of the hoodies is red and black. When it comes to t-shirts I like it simple colored with a motive and even with this simple request most t-s cost around 30euro!? So after like couple of days I finally found a gray one with striped rabbit motive and a white one with a boat leaking a skull with the text "Stop pollutioning our seas before it is too late", both of them are typical me ^_^

I haven't been playing games lately, World of Warcraft is lagging as the new patch came "prepare for cataclysm!". I already pre-ordered a collector's edition when my economy is little better, well.. I'm not only after that pet, I like the artwork book etc. I'm also thinking about buying a computer so I can play some new games like Dragon Age 2, the reason I'm unsure is because I don't want to spend all my money, so if I manage to get a work somewhere for least a month then I gonna buy a computer. Currently I'm part-time working at my parents restaurant, I will be very happy if you came by, just call me and see if I can work the day you comin =)

Monday, August 2, 2010

Weekend

As usually I slack alot at weekends, mostly because I sleep quite bad when I work. My current worktime is 8-16 monday to friday and I most likely sleep about 3-6 hours these days, I'm not used to it and I find it hard to fall asleep before 23.00
I also got my new lens last friday! I bought "brilliant blue" and "sterling gray".

I'm using the blue ones at the moment and here's a picture!

Friday, July 30, 2010

What a quote.

"My love for you is a journey. Starting at forever and ending at never."
Can anyone tell me where it comes from?

SotD: The All Spark

Transformers: The Score - The All Spark

Yeah, I love Tranformers :)

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Cosplay?

I've been thinking about making a cosplay for awhile, and this is the perfect one to start with tho it can be very hard T_T! Since I'm not very experienced, I hope my friends will help me out!?
I really love this World of Warcraft Druid set (Tier 6), but I might end up making another staff. One someone haven't made yet :)

If you have any tips or idea, tell me, I gladly want to hear them.

welcome back

I've been away last week, tho I came back wednesday I've a little bit lazy with updates. So here's a fast review:
I went to cinema with my little brother, Tomas and Linnea on Sunday. We watched the new movie "Inception", I like it alot, the whole concept about dreaming in dreams, it's just too much me :)
I did also buy "Starcraft II: Wings of Liberty" yesterday, I have only played a couple of games with my friend Robin so far. I want to play some World of Warcraft too, haven't for about a week but everytime I login I feel a little tired, I just want to play some arena with someone who knows a little bit what he/she is doing ^^
And it feels really empty right now in that game when barely any IRL friends is online, well, I guess people have stuffs to do.
Anyone want to migrate to Shattered Hand EU as horde or Argent Dawn EU as alliance? :D

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Forever After

I went to cinema yesterday and watched latest Shrek with my brother, he bought a stupid bottle with the cat on top.
Shrek: Forever After - This movie shows us how random our life can be, alot of luck. And telling us some stuffs will done or not no matter what. I mean some stuffs are meant for you, and some stuffs are meant you and other people.
You can somehow control your life, you don't understand how much you can control until lose it all. How much what you do actually matter, but you don't understand until it's gone, maybe for good.
You can hold on to things forever, but only if you try.
Do your best all the time, or let randomness control you.

Monday, July 12, 2010

SC2 beta :)

Finally I can play the final SC2 beta, anyone want to play with or against me? Except R, I know you want to :)

SotD: Gee

SNSD - Gee

A cute song by a korean girl group

Where are you?

Damn, I just realized I lost my labret to my piercing. I took it off and put it inside my backpocket like I usually do and next day it's gone, I must have dropped it on the bus or something.. So I got to buy a new one now :(

Saturday, July 10, 2010

The Final Cut

It's a movie about our world with a technology to save people memories by inserting a microchips inside our brain. To later on death make a "rememory" - a short movie about this dead person life that a cutter made together by using the microchip.
It's about how far are you ready to go for proof or to keep memories forever, doesn't the one who has them own them himself? What would the owner really think about, if he could choose again?
We follow Robin Williams doing a great job, for people who like ethic vs technology I really recommend this movie.

Friday, July 9, 2010

SotD: New Divide & Not Alone

Linkin Park - New Divide

Like a startling sign, that fate has finally found me

Linkin Park - Not alone

I break down, fear is sinking in

Thursday, July 8, 2010

SotD: Utopia & Crime and Punishment

Within Temptation ft Chris Jones - Utopia

In search of the door to open your mind
In search of the cure of mankind




Sammi Cheng ft 24 herbs - Crime And Punishment

Any movie tip?

I'm bored again already, and I want to watch some movie(s) after work, but I have no idea what. I might go to cinema with brother again to watch "killers", "Shrek 4" or "A-team" because there's no other movie at the moment I want to see.
I'm planning to watch "Predator", "SALT", "Resident Evil: Afterlife", "The Last Airbender", "Harry Potter 7" and "Narnia 3". But these movies haven't been released yet, got any other tip? Doesn't have to be new or at cinema.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Dark Phoenix

Hope this is the new gladiator mount in World of Warcraft: Cataclysm
So I can have it :D

Where did the zerglings go?

I did play the Starcraft2 beta and I liked it alot, I like the fast, clean and classic strategy style with some small candy changes doing it. I did some argue with some friends some days ago about RTS (real time strategy). One liked starcraft2 but didn't believe it will become big, and the other one hated it and didn't believe it at all. Then something comes up in my mind, what kind of game are you looking for? A game to be competitive in friend-scale or more global-scale? I'm not here to argue which is the best RTS ever.

I can understand if people find classic strategy a little bit boring, the gamestyle says it all. If you are looking for a new gamestyle then do it, but new gamestyle doesn't mean it will be balance and competitive in global-scale since classic is the oldest strategy gamestyle, I believe it's also easier to balance when you more or less been into it before.
When you create a new gamestyle then you need to balance the game and the gamestyle which is why many games get ruined, and after people complain I still trust Blizzard making a really enjoyable game again. They are fast with updates, balance and really experienced in big scale gaming.
Next problem is lesser known games have a instinct to release expansion, expansion.. They release new races, new maps but nothing more, with more races just mean more problems and making it unstable. And then they release next game, which is more or less same game with better grafic.

It can seem like I love Blizzard, but I'm just fair. I'm a person who actually love to test new gamestyles and fantasy, I believe more people should be fair before complaining. Why do you think it took Blizzard all these years to release a second game of this set? They have implented some new things that all these other RTS couldn't do, and still making it recognizable, they made WC3 and kicked ass, but I really do believe they could have released alot more games if they were going to be like every other company.

I'm quite experienced in gaming, I play alot different games, I compete in friend-scale and global-scale. And to be honest, many ideas out there are good and sometimes even much better than Blizzards but, they fall somewhere on the way.
Since Blizzard have alot of big scale gaming experience they also make a good "ladder system" since WC3 and no one else really making it that even today.

Save the best to be the last.
27 - 7 - 2010

And at last, end of my nonsense, can the game please release..?

Week 29

I just planned to work additional two more weeks than I thought this summer, since a colleague got some back injury. I work around 8 to 16 on weekdays and sometimes also work at restaurant evenings at weekends.
It's not a bad thing, I do like this job except starting at 8, I'm little bit of a night person. So I get extremely tired sometimes, then I drink some tea or coffee.
And of course, I get some more money, I've heard that's good.

So far I will work all weeks except 29 and still I have nothing planned really, I might go somewhere or maybe work more?

- "Work work" says the orc peon

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Movie Quote(s)

"Doesn't he own a shirt?"
-Edward Cullen

"We can't repay our good luck with bad grace, it invites darkness."
-Robin Hood

Music Quote(s)

"Talking to myself, too many sleepless nights"
- Mel C - First Day of My Life


"Couldn't save you from the start
Love you so it hurts my soul"

"I watched the clouds drifting away
Still the sun can't warm my face"
- Within Temptation - Forgiven

Bedtime story



I've been looking for a bed, since I probably will move out soon enough. And can't believe how hard it is tho I have only been watching websites, I like this one most at the moment and it's from IKEA. Well, I really think I need to go there myself, I guess they don't upload all their articles?

I will need alot of furnitures since I barely own anything, luckily I have job until the end of september =)

I also like this lamp and mirror.

Song of the Day: Still Alive

Lisa Miskovsky - Still Alive

So silent
No violence
But inside my head
So loud and clear


Eclipse

I just came home after watching Twilight: Eclipse with my little brother, I'd like them introducing more of the Cullen family members. Somehow Bella manage to figure out little more what she really wants, and seems to be ready to get into her choice.
I also liked how the vampires are in the twilight fantasy, they are hard and dies like broken glass.

Bella finally realize that she also loves Jacob, but loves Edward just little more.
It actually reflects my past a little, when A loved her a little more than she loved me, and still I guess I give up too early since there's more people saying this.
Although I'm more the vampire guy, but I do believe the next chapter ends up with Edward sacrificing himself to save Jacob. So it probably will end like my past.
Why I feel more like a vampire? I'm not really into bloodsucking but I'm a little bit unmodern and very loyal when it comes to love.
When I fall in love, I automatically become loyal, eternal loving this person. But tho to the proofs pointing that I'm cold like a vampire even I'm not. I sometime just can't act, I get somehow frozen. And I consider myself not the best choice which is stupid according to many, some may know why it gets complicated.
I know my strengths and I know my weakness.

Here's my favorite song from "Twilight: New Moon"