Thursday, December 22, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Ocean Dream
I’m dreaming of yesterday
Everything becoming timeless, blinded, empty
May slowly find a meaning
Showing everyone what’s right
Remaining thoughts burns in my heart
Thousands light will never be enough
Take me through the ocean
Tears will not change
Is there anything left within
Take me to another dream
Take me through the tides
Clouds will not change
Is there anything left within
Take me to another dream
I’m dreaming of yesterday
I’m trying to collect the arrows of time
Everything becoming to clear to be real
Hide behind wounded shadows
Make my sapphires perfect again
Whispering these warnings so loudly
This harmlessness is crippling me
Take me through the ocean
Tears will not change
Is there anything left within
Take me to another dream
Take me through the tides
Clouds will not change
Is there anything left within
Take me to another dream
How can’t it vanish as I open my eyes
Another day in the dream
Remaining thoughts burns in my heart
Thousands light is not enough
I’m dreaming of yesterday
I dreamed of yesterday
Take me through the ocean
Tears will not change
Is there anything left within
Take me to another dream
Take me through the tides
Clouds will not change
Is there anything left within
Take me to another dream
© akireimei
Monday, December 12, 2011
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Friday, October 7, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Friday, September 2, 2011
First excursion!
My class went to our first excursion, first we went to a esker some miles away.
The teacher wanted us to pick up so many different minerals as possible and try to identify them, then we used mining pick and hammer for the first time (the stones are so much harder than they look)
Here's a picture with view over the place
I found a stone with pretty rings on
I climbed pretty high, it's more steep than it looks like!
If you extend the size then you might see a guy almost at top with red jeans (that's me)
We went to another place nearby to see some rare formed stones.
And the view around this place
The teacher wanted us to pick up so many different minerals as possible and try to identify them, then we used mining pick and hammer for the first time (the stones are so much harder than they look)
Here's a picture with view over the place
I found a stone with pretty rings on
I climbed pretty high, it's more steep than it looks like!
If you extend the size then you might see a guy almost at top with red jeans (that's me)
We went to another place nearby to see some rare formed stones.
And the view around this place
August 30
Some days ago I went to the forest with three classmates, two of them picked some mushrooms while I was looking after funny rocks. I found a lot of quartz, epidot and feldspar.
We also found two frogs at different locations.
We went back to the reindeer skeleton to check the quality of the skull and horns but the quality was worse than I remember so I decided to not pick it with me, while looking around we saw the jaw at left inside the forest.
We decided to go there and we found a place with a lot of big stones and a lot of reindeer horns but they were too old and broken.
Still, this place was strange, calm and beautiful, I guess it's some kind of favorite place to drop horns.
We also found two frogs at different locations.
We went back to the reindeer skeleton to check the quality of the skull and horns but the quality was worse than I remember so I decided to not pick it with me, while looking around we saw the jaw at left inside the forest.
We decided to go there and we found a place with a lot of big stones and a lot of reindeer horns but they were too old and broken.
Still, this place was strange, calm and beautiful, I guess it's some kind of favorite place to drop horns.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Forest walk
Went into the nearby forest for the first time with a friend, the view is really amazing. 
We found some mushrooms and some other stuffs like:
Little friend looking at me
And some bones..
Current Stop -> Lannavaara
I have been here for a couple of days now and it feels so good.
School is starting tomorrow with some geology theory and we are taking our first adventure into the wild on friday.
Here's some picture from last few days.
School is starting tomorrow with some geology theory and we are taking our first adventure into the wild on friday.
Here's some picture from last few days.
View from my room
The only food store in town
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Current Stop -> Luleå
I arrived to Luleå yesterday, going to university today for introduction of my program.
Some information, guiding around school and then dinner in the scheme. :)
Some information, guiding around school and then dinner in the scheme. :)
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Not north enough.
I thought I couldn't get into other programs since I only got the diet one and being reserve on all others, but I can be wrong.
I got into Gem Stone Engineering and Design at Luleå Tekniska Universitet but I am going to study even further north of Kiruna in a town called "Lannavaara". They have all the resources there so I am living there.
I really forward to this, I will learn a lot about smelting, prospecting and gem/stone engineering and designing :)
I got into Gem Stone Engineering and Design at Luleå Tekniska Universitet but I am going to study even further north of Kiruna in a town called "Lannavaara". They have all the resources there so I am living there.
I really forward to this, I will learn a lot about smelting, prospecting and gem/stone engineering and designing :)
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Way out North
I got into Umeå University program "Diet Planner", it's a three years program about diet habits of populations, economy, enviroment and health.
I might also get into a profession academy in Luleå, the program is called "Rail Designer", this one teach you about railways, transport and communication.
I'm also being reserved for some other programs and I haven't decided what to really take just yet. But it feels like I'm going north.
I might also get into a profession academy in Luleå, the program is called "Rail Designer", this one teach you about railways, transport and communication.
I'm also being reserved for some other programs and I haven't decided what to really take just yet. But it feels like I'm going north.
Oh Gackt, what have you done..?
I went to Gackt concert in Stockholm at tuesday, I really looked forward this day.
I met with some friends, haven't seen couple of them for a while.
We came to the place around 18:15, we stood in que for around an hour before we got inside. I wanted to buy a t-shirt which I usually do when I go to concerts, for the first time in my life the shirts was so ugly so I couldn't buy it.
It had a skeleton chicken logo in the red, the shirt was black and above the chicken it was printed "Yellow Fried Chickenz".. I was like.. it says yellow but the shirt is red and black (it wasn't printed GACKT anywhere on the shirt).
We waited almost another hour before he, Gackt, finally came.
The introduction of the concert didn't hit me at all, it was stiff, so false.
This almost disappeared but with his endings of ending after each song made it feel so tiring, so annoying. All people who were there respected and loved him so much already and still he needed this unending ego boost when he wanted people to scream after every song while he made some dramatic moves, dude, you don't need to do same thing over and over again (around 10-15min each time).. I mean wtf, seriously, after every song?
And this sidekick whos name I don't care to remember, don't take him with you, please? I could understand if he was backup vocal, standing somewhere at back but sharing front with Gackt!? He really sang half of the songs, I didn't pay to see him and listen to him aswell?
Not to overreact but this was the worst concert I have ever experienced.
And I need to troll, there's a new word worst than worst it's.. gackt.
Trollolol..
I met with some friends, haven't seen couple of them for a while.
We came to the place around 18:15, we stood in que for around an hour before we got inside. I wanted to buy a t-shirt which I usually do when I go to concerts, for the first time in my life the shirts was so ugly so I couldn't buy it.
It had a skeleton chicken logo in the red, the shirt was black and above the chicken it was printed "Yellow Fried Chickenz".. I was like.. it says yellow but the shirt is red and black (it wasn't printed GACKT anywhere on the shirt).
We waited almost another hour before he, Gackt, finally came.
The introduction of the concert didn't hit me at all, it was stiff, so false.
This almost disappeared but with his endings of ending after each song made it feel so tiring, so annoying. All people who were there respected and loved him so much already and still he needed this unending ego boost when he wanted people to scream after every song while he made some dramatic moves, dude, you don't need to do same thing over and over again (around 10-15min each time).. I mean wtf, seriously, after every song?
And this sidekick whos name I don't care to remember, don't take him with you, please? I could understand if he was backup vocal, standing somewhere at back but sharing front with Gackt!? He really sang half of the songs, I didn't pay to see him and listen to him aswell?
Not to overreact but this was the worst concert I have ever experienced.
And I need to troll, there's a new word worst than worst it's.. gackt.
Trollolol..
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Song of the Day: Taking Over Me
I miss this feeling when you seem to know what you need, what you are.
But I feel pretty well right now, without any of this.
I see it from the "good" side, I might fall in love again? :P
PS. Can they get done with remaking the road outside me soon?
They've been working every night for a week..
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Uh..
Oh yes, I have forgot to update for a while. Mostly because I nowadays work from 10am to like 11pm every day except monday. And when I'm finally at home I just watch some movie and then fall asleep, I haven't really think about to update, always in mind like "I do it tomorrow" and then tomorrow become tomorrow and so on.
I went to watch latest Harry Potter movie with my parents this monday, it's kinda awesome and some parts of me wants more but then I realize that part 1 is much better made than part 2.
Part 1 felt so realistic, so near, really well done. But the part 2 felt too much like "it's the final, battle, battle, Voldemort died".
PS. I'm giving my brother my dear druid Numeria..
I went to watch latest Harry Potter movie with my parents this monday, it's kinda awesome and some parts of me wants more but then I realize that part 1 is much better made than part 2.
Part 1 felt so realistic, so near, really well done. But the part 2 felt too much like "it's the final, battle, battle, Voldemort died".
PS. I'm giving my brother my dear druid Numeria..
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Recap: 5 July
Finally I got to see Transformers: Dark of the Moon, I was going to watch this movie at the premier but I "spontaneously" went to Roskilde Festival instead. I almost watched this movie in Copenhagen, that's how much I wanted to.
I went with Z and we were quite late but the movie didn't start yet, was delayed with about 15min (not my fault :P). This movie is more action, half the movie is a battle.
I like the new transformers and my all-star favorite is Shockwave, it almost feels like he's the main badass in this movie :)
If you have watched the first two parts then you got to watch this one aswell, you will like it.
Optimus Prime
"You may lose your faith in us but never in yourselves.
From here, the fight will be your own."
I went with Z and we were quite late but the movie didn't start yet, was delayed with about 15min (not my fault :P). This movie is more action, half the movie is a battle.
I like the new transformers and my all-star favorite is Shockwave, it almost feels like he's the main badass in this movie :)
If you have watched the first two parts then you got to watch this one aswell, you will like it.
Optimus Prime
"You may lose your faith in us but never in yourselves.
From here, the fight will be your own."
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
I survived Roskile Festival.
If you don't know I have been at Roskilde Festival for last 5 days, from wednesday 21:00 until today 09:00. It been a fantastic experience except the extreme switching between heavy rain and unclouded sun, and the sick prize for stuffs over there.
It usually feels like I complain about a lot of stufs but you don't know how it been there :P
It was non-stop sun without clouds or so heavy rain that the ground became 6-8cm mud of DOOM. The prize for a meal of food cost around 60-85 danish and the food was really sucky, not even meeting normal standard at all, I was really disappointed (don't say: it's a festival because I have been at a couple and the food was cheaper and better.)
Randomly my group started talking to two norwegians in the que at the festival entrance, we shared camp with them and these guys were so awesome. Another thing to mention, why do like 80% of all danish people dislike swedes!? I'm sorry but I can't understand what you say, we aren't dumb because we did understand norwish -.-
I found some new good music like PJ Harvey, Portishead, Yelle, Ghost. I also saw some I already knew like Bad Religion, My Chemical Romance, Iron Maiden, The Strokes, Soilwork. Unfortunely I missed out Lykke Li because I went to Autopsy, and that's not really my music style :P
It usually feels like I complain about a lot of stufs but you don't know how it been there :P
It was non-stop sun without clouds or so heavy rain that the ground became 6-8cm mud of DOOM. The prize for a meal of food cost around 60-85 danish and the food was really sucky, not even meeting normal standard at all, I was really disappointed (don't say: it's a festival because I have been at a couple and the food was cheaper and better.)
Randomly my group started talking to two norwegians in the que at the festival entrance, we shared camp with them and these guys were so awesome. Another thing to mention, why do like 80% of all danish people dislike swedes!? I'm sorry but I can't understand what you say, we aren't dumb because we did understand norwish -.-
I found some new good music like PJ Harvey, Portishead, Yelle, Ghost. I also saw some I already knew like Bad Religion, My Chemical Romance, Iron Maiden, The Strokes, Soilwork. Unfortunely I missed out Lykke Li because I went to Autopsy, and that's not really my music style :P
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Recap: 17 June
My cousin K asked me earlier that week if I wanted to watch Super 8 with him and maybe some frieds, I'm a movie/cinema-freak so I said yeah XD
We ended up as four. It was me, K, Hassan (a friend of K and mine) and another girl friend of K, who I don't remember the name (sorry).
Super 8 was a relaxing movie about some kids filming a movie they wanna send to a upcoming movie festival.
One night they decides to film at a small train station nearby and all of a sudden a passing train crashes, in fear they runs home meanwhile the military force comes.
Soon enough mysterious and unexplainable actions happens all around their town like people and stuffs disappearing. There's only one question, what was in that train?
A beautiful made, easy but detailed movie.
We went to a nearby restaurant called "Pong" with more of their friends (a lot of people!), we talked, ate and some singed karaoke. Sadly they closed at twelve and my cousin and Hassan decided to go home which I decided too even I wanted to stay out longer. I called around a little but didn't catch anyone except L who was on their way to Pub Anchor.
I wasn't too sure about that and I thought they were there already, but randomly I walked past a train at Slussen and guess who sat at the window I walked past? :D
I joined with L and his twin brother to Pub Anchor, I met some of their friends there but we decided to go home around two when the they started to play really bad music really loud.
A really successful day, it was a funny and spontaneous day.
PS. By random we started to talk about Gackt and L told me he was coming to Sweden :D
We ended up as four. It was me, K, Hassan (a friend of K and mine) and another girl friend of K, who I don't remember the name (sorry).
Super 8 was a relaxing movie about some kids filming a movie they wanna send to a upcoming movie festival.
One night they decides to film at a small train station nearby and all of a sudden a passing train crashes, in fear they runs home meanwhile the military force comes.
Soon enough mysterious and unexplainable actions happens all around their town like people and stuffs disappearing. There's only one question, what was in that train?
A beautiful made, easy but detailed movie.
We went to a nearby restaurant called "Pong" with more of their friends (a lot of people!), we talked, ate and some singed karaoke. Sadly they closed at twelve and my cousin and Hassan decided to go home which I decided too even I wanted to stay out longer. I called around a little but didn't catch anyone except L who was on their way to Pub Anchor.
I wasn't too sure about that and I thought they were there already, but randomly I walked past a train at Slussen and guess who sat at the window I walked past? :D
I joined with L and his twin brother to Pub Anchor, I met some of their friends there but we decided to go home around two when the they started to play really bad music really loud.
A really successful day, it was a funny and spontaneous day.
PS. By random we started to talk about Gackt and L told me he was coming to Sweden :D
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Recap: 14 June
Thank you Linkin Park for giving me such a great time at your concert, you guys were amazing and I really hope you to come back soon again!
I bought two tour t-shirts :)
I bought two tour t-shirts :)
This is Linkin Park latest video, soundtrack of Transformers: Dark of the Moon.
(coming to cinemas in Sweden 29 June)
(coming to cinemas in Sweden 29 June)
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Recap: 3 June
I went to see X-Men: First Class with my brother D, cousin K, Josef and Z. Started the day with meeting up Z after her work then we hook up with Josef who wanted to check out "Fältöversten", ended up buying some icecream he didn't like (don't remember the flavor).
Shorty after that we went to central and met up with my brother and cousin just before the movie starting, I managed to buy my mineral water "Dragonfruit" although the que was so long.
The movie was really great, I absolutely liked the introduction of the characters. I have always loved these comics but I'm not that into it to know the story of all characters, somehow I knew a little bit about the relationship between Magneto and Professor X.
Although they are enemies today they still respect each other a lot. If you like comics then I recommend you to watch the trailer and the movie, great movie, great deep, great acting!
Shorty after that we went to central and met up with my brother and cousin just before the movie starting, I managed to buy my mineral water "Dragonfruit" although the que was so long.
The movie was really great, I absolutely liked the introduction of the characters. I have always loved these comics but I'm not that into it to know the story of all characters, somehow I knew a little bit about the relationship between Magneto and Professor X.
Although they are enemies today they still respect each other a lot. If you like comics then I recommend you to watch the trailer and the movie, great movie, great deep, great acting!
Friday, June 3, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Recap: 22 May
I went to see my friend Z at T-Centralen, we started with walking to Kungsträdgården and then to Gamla stan (ended up in Sci-Fi Bokhandeln). After a while at the movie and book shelves we walked back to city, we realized we had the same favorite café but sadly they was renovating.
We walked around for a while until I remember a café at Sveavägen around ten minutes away, we got there and I got my hot chocolate (yeah, like usually ^_^) and blue berry pie while Z bought green tea and some kind of chocolate cake.
We walked to cinema "Filmstaden Sergel" to see if there were any interest movie, then I found out that Z likes cars, she keeps suprising me XD So we bought tickets to "Fast and Furious Five". We needed to eat fast so we choosed McDonalds (yeah..) then watch that movie.
This movie was so awesome, you could really feel the cinema tremble when the beautiful or when the heavy battlec drove past, the best movie in the series.
If you like cars or action, I recommend this movie.
We walked around for a while until I remember a café at Sveavägen around ten minutes away, we got there and I got my hot chocolate (yeah, like usually ^_^) and blue berry pie while Z bought green tea and some kind of chocolate cake.
We walked to cinema "Filmstaden Sergel" to see if there were any interest movie, then I found out that Z likes cars, she keeps suprising me XD So we bought tickets to "Fast and Furious Five". We needed to eat fast so we choosed McDonalds (yeah..) then watch that movie.
This movie was so awesome, you could really feel the cinema tremble when the beautiful or when the heavy battlec drove past, the best movie in the series.
If you like cars or action, I recommend this movie.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
21 May
I went out with my older brother to meet his friend P, we went along Drottninggatan looking for a place too eat when P suddenly remember a place a bit further away on the same street.
American Bar and Steakhouse is the name, a really nice place and P said their meat was amazing last time he was here. I and my brother ordered each Weiter (300gram entrecôte) and P took a Carpenter (400gram beef), it took a while before our food came after the starter (salad starter included). I wanted my entrecôte medium and it was awesome, really good one. I think they are more generous than other restaurant because this 300gram was much more than normally 300gram at other places, so I think they might have added some few grams before making it since they know it will shrink.
After a great dinner we went to cinema to see when the movies were going to show, we had to wait least over an hour for next show so we skipped it and he drove us home before the went home himself.
If you love steak then I really recommend this place :)
PS. I have pierced my ears with 3.2mm holes on each ear, it's bigger than normally because I'm going to stretch it little more.
American Bar and Steakhouse is the name, a really nice place and P said their meat was amazing last time he was here. I and my brother ordered each Weiter (300gram entrecôte) and P took a Carpenter (400gram beef), it took a while before our food came after the starter (salad starter included). I wanted my entrecôte medium and it was awesome, really good one. I think they are more generous than other restaurant because this 300gram was much more than normally 300gram at other places, so I think they might have added some few grams before making it since they know it will shrink.
After a great dinner we went to cinema to see when the movies were going to show, we had to wait least over an hour for next show so we skipped it and he drove us home before the went home himself.
If you love steak then I really recommend this place :)
PS. I have pierced my ears with 3.2mm holes on each ear, it's bigger than normally because I'm going to stretch it little more.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Friday, May 20, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
On Stranger Tides
After fixing some papers and stuffs about my bad hearing, I decided to work a little today. Later tonight after work I went to cinema with my brother to watch Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1298650/) 21:20 at cinema Sergel.
It's a very funny, enjoyable and mystery fourth movie of Pirates of the Carribean series. Jack Sparrow is once again back on track, drunk in problems as usually. But this time he's alone, without his beloved Black Pearl and guided by rumors about the Fountain of Youth, why is he seaching for this legendary spring? Maybe he is getting old?
He encounters zombies, mermaids, the very feared Blackbeard himself and of course Barbossa during this journey. Taking you through beautiful enviroments which makes me vacation-sick and you will find the truth about our dear Cpt. Jack Sparrow!
One more thing, there will be a really small movie clip after the ending-text.
It's a very funny, enjoyable and mystery fourth movie of Pirates of the Carribean series. Jack Sparrow is once again back on track, drunk in problems as usually. But this time he's alone, without his beloved Black Pearl and guided by rumors about the Fountain of Youth, why is he seaching for this legendary spring? Maybe he is getting old?
He encounters zombies, mermaids, the very feared Blackbeard himself and of course Barbossa during this journey. Taking you through beautiful enviroments which makes me vacation-sick and you will find the truth about our dear Cpt. Jack Sparrow!
One more thing, there will be a really small movie clip after the ending-text.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Song of the Day: Acceptable Losses
Some people will stay true to you forever, always there when you are in need although they might sacrifice some of their own. They don't mind as long as you try to see the big picture.
Some people will try their best for you and for themselves, they might not always succeed but that doesn't mean they are bad. People may have hard times themselves, it's not wrong to have yourself as top priority sometimes.
Some people will just flow with the wave, take whatever they need and left everything else. The truth is, these people can not even stay honest to themself. They don't spend anything on other than themself, they fear everyone because they fear themselves. They don't bother to strain because they always think: the wave will(might) change direction anyway.
People will come, some will stay and some will go.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Song of the Day: What About My Dreams
This is my new Eurovision favorite, I really hope she sings better today and win :)
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
10 May
My order has finally arrived.. to Stockholm airport Arlanda but I've been busy today and gonna be busy tomorrow aswell when my friend arrives, so DHL gonna deliver the package to me at thursday after 14:00!
I saw my friend Lo today, I don't even remember last time I met him and I can't remember if it's because it been too long or just me keep forgetting things. *BIG sight*
Anyway, we went to Kungsträdgården and he bought us icecream and we walked toward Old Town. The icecream was so huge and I felt so full when I finally ate it up, next stop was Sci-Fi Bokhandeln. We spent most time at the movie shelves and realized how many stupid movies there is, if you don't believe me you better take a look around there XD
We both went home after that.
I made a necklace with stuffs I bought last week while watching Jason Bourne trilogy, I remember I liked the first movie but haven't really got to continue this trilogy until I realized I had it in my external hard disk.
I started over with the first chapter and couldn't stop until I saw them all. I really like the style they make these movies, a lot of close-up combat, adrenaline chasing, just a very smart made movie.
It's hard to realize that Matt Damon is a excellent action actor, you can really feel him into the skin, feel he bleed, feel him confused but still controlled. Another good reality military movie including him is "Green Zone", yet another well done movie.
I usually don't like this kind of movie because they get too political, Green Zone is a bit but still showing us the other side at the same time. I long for more Matt Damon movies really, he's under-rated and deserves much more attention.
PS: I badly need a camera..
I saw my friend Lo today, I don't even remember last time I met him and I can't remember if it's because it been too long or just me keep forgetting things. *BIG sight*
Anyway, we went to Kungsträdgården and he bought us icecream and we walked toward Old Town. The icecream was so huge and I felt so full when I finally ate it up, next stop was Sci-Fi Bokhandeln. We spent most time at the movie shelves and realized how many stupid movies there is, if you don't believe me you better take a look around there XD
We both went home after that.
I made a necklace with stuffs I bought last week while watching Jason Bourne trilogy, I remember I liked the first movie but haven't really got to continue this trilogy until I realized I had it in my external hard disk.
I started over with the first chapter and couldn't stop until I saw them all. I really like the style they make these movies, a lot of close-up combat, adrenaline chasing, just a very smart made movie.
It's hard to realize that Matt Damon is a excellent action actor, you can really feel him into the skin, feel he bleed, feel him confused but still controlled. Another good reality military movie including him is "Green Zone", yet another well done movie.
I usually don't like this kind of movie because they get too political, Green Zone is a bit but still showing us the other side at the same time. I long for more Matt Damon movies really, he's under-rated and deserves much more attention.
PS: I badly need a camera..
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
NextStop -> Arvikafestivalen
Wiee, finally bought ticket to Arvikafestivalen at 14-16 july!
Least one funny event this summer, absolutely hoping for more :)
Least one funny event this summer, absolutely hoping for more :)
Monday, May 9, 2011
Friday, May 6, 2011
Under the sky
The sky went so cloudy
And I could feel the ground beneath growing colder
I can’t find my heart among this debris
I don’t really know what I’m looking for
When I stand at the edge, full of desperation
All I know is that you’re gone
I don’t want to remember all the sadness
I wish the winds blew the stars away
As they covered you, I wasn’t breathing
I could no longer feel my chest, it collapsed
I tried to stand up but I had no direction
I was too blinded to see
As they took you away, I’m no longer alive
I could no longer feel my chest, it collapsed
I looked into the hallway
It seemed never-ending
The night slipped into the sky
Soon through the window to me
I was used to me my very own protection
So slow, I was so wrong
Does it matter what I feel
It feels empty anyway
I was used to me my very own protection
So slow, I was so wrong
When I stand at the edge, full of desperation
All I know is that you’re gone
I don’t want to remember all the sadness
I wish the winds blew the stars away
Hold on a second, stay with me
I don’t want to apologize
I want you to catch me
Don’t go, don’t let me go
//Nakigahara
And I could feel the ground beneath growing colder
I can’t find my heart among this debris
I don’t really know what I’m looking for
When I stand at the edge, full of desperation
All I know is that you’re gone
I don’t want to remember all the sadness
I wish the winds blew the stars away
As they covered you, I wasn’t breathing
I could no longer feel my chest, it collapsed
I tried to stand up but I had no direction
I was too blinded to see
As they took you away, I’m no longer alive
I could no longer feel my chest, it collapsed
I looked into the hallway
It seemed never-ending
The night slipped into the sky
Soon through the window to me
I was used to me my very own protection
So slow, I was so wrong
Does it matter what I feel
It feels empty anyway
I was used to me my very own protection
So slow, I was so wrong
When I stand at the edge, full of desperation
All I know is that you’re gone
I don’t want to remember all the sadness
I wish the winds blew the stars away
Hold on a second, stay with me
I don’t want to apologize
I want you to catch me
Don’t go, don’t let me go
//Nakigahara
©
COPYRIGHT !?Thursday, May 5, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Yay!
I have order some clothes from South Korea, they should be here in couple of weeks. Sadly, one shirt was sold out but I got other nice stuffs :D
I bought a tie some days ago but I can't find a nice picture from their website :(
I have realized how allergic I can be sometimes and tested nose-spray for the first time today, was kinda scary but it helped! I couldn't really use my nose for like two days and ended up with that solution, normally I just eat some allergic pills..
I bought a tie some days ago but I can't find a nice picture from their website :(
I have realized how allergic I can be sometimes and tested nose-spray for the first time today, was kinda scary but it helped! I couldn't really use my nose for like two days and ended up with that solution, normally I just eat some allergic pills..
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Master Baneling..
I've been playing of Starcraft 2, it goes pretty well. I'm on Diamond league at the moment ranked 19. I'm aiming for Master league, which is next level and the one after is Grand Master league which will take too much time to get there so I don't even bother XD
I've been training against a friend Nygi, tho he doesn't like cheese or robot-bay units, so I can only train late game Zerg vs Protoss.
Also ordered some clothes which should be in my postbox in max 2 weeks, new clothes is tumb up!
I've been training against a friend Nygi, tho he doesn't like cheese or robot-bay units, so I can only train late game Zerg vs Protoss.
Also ordered some clothes which should be in my postbox in max 2 weeks, new clothes is tumb up!
Monday, April 25, 2011
Happy Easter
I haven't painted or been chasing any eggs, but I think I will do these kind of games for my kids in the future. I went out last week looking for some stuffs, I found shoes and a t-shirt with swordfish print :)
These are my shoes, they are absolutely perfect. They are long-walking friendly, nice design and fortunely cheap as 25euro (I thought them of being around 50eurp at least) so it was a great deal!
I was at a bowling/bar yesterday where my friend Björn had a gig, it was great although the scene was above the bowling track but too far away from the audience which sat behind, one floor higher up behind the bowling players. Would be better if it was some kind of balcony which made the audience closer to the scene! :D
These are my shoes, they are absolutely perfect. They are long-walking friendly, nice design and fortunely cheap as 25euro (I thought them of being around 50eurp at least) so it was a great deal!
I was at a bowling/bar yesterday where my friend Björn had a gig, it was great although the scene was above the bowling track but too far away from the audience which sat behind, one floor higher up behind the bowling players. Would be better if it was some kind of balcony which made the audience closer to the scene! :D
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Song of the Day: Iridescent
Linkin Park have made one song for each Transformers movie and it wasn't random at all to hear them making another one for the last movie of the trilogy. Newly they presented that they goonna pick a song from their latest album, one of the best songs from the that album called "Iridescent".
Unfortunely this song don't have a video yet but I guess they gonna make one now when it became a song for the official sountrack!
Unfortunely this song don't have a video yet but I guess they gonna make one now when it became a song for the official sountrack!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Sunny days
Finally the sun has come, and is going to stay from now on until the winter. I haven't been out so much yet, I hope I gonna go out tomorrow and get some sunshine.
I haven't been longing for the sun so much like this year, the last part of last year and beginning of this year have been quite heavy. So it feels good to some kind of start over, for good and bad reasons.
Good night everyone, I'm going to sleep before the sun goes up again.
I haven't been longing for the sun so much like this year, the last part of last year and beginning of this year have been quite heavy. So it feels good to some kind of start over, for good and bad reasons.
Good night everyone, I'm going to sleep before the sun goes up again.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Song of the Day: FFVII Advent Children
I watched Final Fantasy VII Advent Children again, it was much better than I remember and when I did pay attention this time I understood the whole story XD
I've been listening to the soundtracks for a while, that's why I had to watch it again. Final Fantasy always deliver great music, they don't only pay attention to the graphic in the games.
Here's two songs from soundtrack of Final Fantasy VII Advent Children
These songs reminds me of how easily things can turn around, how something that's everything for you can suddenly becomes was. When a heart breaks free from where it thought to belong, some will never be completely free, some flies away, higher than ever.
I was a person who loved memories, items from good and bad memories, I believed they made me alive, they made me live on.
I want to hold onto to memories forever, there's no reason to let them go away. The moment only last back then but the memories are forever, eternal. I've stopped chasing these long past moments, I let them be memories that slowly become forgotten. Although they are forgotten, there's more of them inside us than we think because they make us the one we are. They are like scars that healed and then become a part of us, a part we can't see.
There's a lot of times I wish I should have said some, I wish I was brave enough to hold onto these moments, I have let them go away too easily. There's so much I wish to erase from the past five years, more for other good than for my own.
I'm fully certain that I have hurt so much more than I have given although I'm thinking about myself as second, I can't love myself, not more than I love other.
I've been listening to the soundtracks for a while, that's why I had to watch it again. Final Fantasy always deliver great music, they don't only pay attention to the graphic in the games.
Here's two songs from soundtrack of Final Fantasy VII Advent Children
Aerith no Theme
Tifa no Theme
These songs reminds me of how easily things can turn around, how something that's everything for you can suddenly becomes was. When a heart breaks free from where it thought to belong, some will never be completely free, some flies away, higher than ever.
I was a person who loved memories, items from good and bad memories, I believed they made me alive, they made me live on.
I want to hold onto to memories forever, there's no reason to let them go away. The moment only last back then but the memories are forever, eternal. I've stopped chasing these long past moments, I let them be memories that slowly become forgotten. Although they are forgotten, there's more of them inside us than we think because they make us the one we are. They are like scars that healed and then become a part of us, a part we can't see.
There's a lot of times I wish I should have said some, I wish I was brave enough to hold onto these moments, I have let them go away too easily. There's so much I wish to erase from the past five years, more for other good than for my own.
I'm fully certain that I have hurt so much more than I have given although I'm thinking about myself as second, I can't love myself, not more than I love other.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Song of the Day: Break Down
Girugamesh - Break Down
Seen them live :) but they seem to make calmer songs nowdays :(
Seen them live :) but they seem to make calmer songs nowdays :(
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Song of the Day: 21 Guns
I'm listening to Green Day again, they sound better than I remember :)
Another band I write into my "have-to-see-live-list"!
Another band I write into my "have-to-see-live-list"!
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Song of the Day: Last Song
Gackt - Last Song
I heard some rumors about him coming to Stockholm next year for some kind of Convent, I hope this is true so I can see him for once! :D
I heard some rumors about him coming to Stockholm next year for some kind of Convent, I hope this is true so I can see him for once! :D
Friday, April 1, 2011
Tomorrow..
At last I'm going to do university test(högskoleprovet) tomorrow from 8am to 4pm, I'm feeling fairly confident. I went to akademi bokhandeln to buy some pencils, rubber and a philosophy book for my philosophy class.
I also bought a watch because I don't have one since about 5 years back.
I need it tomorrow because the test wards doesn't guarantee having a clock, it's nice to know how much time passed and how much you have left.
I also bought a watch because I don't have one since about 5 years back.
I need it tomorrow because the test wards doesn't guarantee having a clock, it's nice to know how much time passed and how much you have left.
Incoming Live: Lisa Miskovsky
Lisa Miskovsky is playing in Stockholm 10th April and in Uppsala 12th May, I would love to go to least one of these live plays. Anyone?
New bed stuffs
Been looking for some duvet cover set for a while, ended up buying this one from hemtex.
Next up is to buy a couple sets with colors, haven't found any yet and I think I need to check Ikea.. That's so far to go and I need to find someone who wanna look around there with me :D
Next up is to buy a couple sets with colors, haven't found any yet and I think I need to check Ikea.. That's so far to go and I need to find someone who wanna look around there with me :D
Song of the Day: Running Scared
Ell & Nikki - Running Scared (Eurovision Azerbaijan)
One of the few good songs this year, I really hope this song wins!
One of the few good songs this year, I really hope this song wins!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Skype party!?
I have been so tired about mostly every game, I have been thinking about buying a strategy game called "Heroes of Newerth" to play with some friends and so did I yesterday.
Been playing quite a lot through LAN or skype, kinda funny actually, I'm just annoyed at the new heroes and items since when I played at the final beta.
I play with some old gamer friends I used to play Defense of the Ancient and World of Warcraft (LAN or least on same server).
Oh well, gonna go to it café with one of them tomorrow morning :)
Sweet dreams!
Been playing quite a lot through LAN or skype, kinda funny actually, I'm just annoyed at the new heroes and items since when I played at the final beta.
I play with some old gamer friends I used to play Defense of the Ancient and World of Warcraft (LAN or least on same server).
Oh well, gonna go to it café with one of them tomorrow morning :)
Sweet dreams!
Monday, March 21, 2011
Disasters
I haven't been here for a while, some stuffs happen in real life and I haven't been able to sit by the computer.
First off, it's actually a very big deal. I have been praying for Japan since the earthquake, people doesn't deserve that, no one do. May people rest in peace.
About the nuclear reactor, things happens, it's not supposed to come a 15meter wave into your city. Unfortunely our world haven't invested enough into other kind of energy production, and by the scale we are at now we have to realize we need nuclear reactors.
You don't recycle and spend way too much electricity (luxury) but you don't want to have nuclear energy, it just doesn't make sense. You can't eat cakes witout getting fat.
With such a reaction you need to realize how little you actually control, your media-freaks. The media is turning you the way they want to, try to think out of the box. We always knew these things could happen, always.
What about all the stuff we drop into the ocean? Simply we won't think about it until there's no more marine animals left, the water poisoned enough so we can't swim in it and THEN we will realize "oh no, it's not good to dump shit into the water"..
"Give me strength to accept what I can't change, courage to change what I can and wisdom to see the difference"
First off, it's actually a very big deal. I have been praying for Japan since the earthquake, people doesn't deserve that, no one do. May people rest in peace.
About the nuclear reactor, things happens, it's not supposed to come a 15meter wave into your city. Unfortunely our world haven't invested enough into other kind of energy production, and by the scale we are at now we have to realize we need nuclear reactors.
You don't recycle and spend way too much electricity (luxury) but you don't want to have nuclear energy, it just doesn't make sense. You can't eat cakes witout getting fat.
With such a reaction you need to realize how little you actually control, your media-freaks. The media is turning you the way they want to, try to think out of the box. We always knew these things could happen, always.
What about all the stuff we drop into the ocean? Simply we won't think about it until there's no more marine animals left, the water poisoned enough so we can't swim in it and THEN we will realize "oh no, it's not good to dump shit into the water"..
"Give me strength to accept what I can't change, courage to change what I can and wisdom to see the difference"
Thursday, March 10, 2011
The Invasion
I love biology when it comes to cells and virus, how easily we can be infected and what could happen if we get infected? *Augh* I'm tired of zombie movies and I have one question about them: If they only are survival instincts from brainstem, how come they don't start eating each other to survive rather than chasing someone who actually can run fast..?
This movie "The Invasion" with Nicole Kidman and Daniel Craig is excellent, how this thoughts comes true in our world. What if a alien spore came and infected to control us like puppets? Excellent actors giving me chills, really convincing.
People talk about freedom, can we sacrifice a part of ourselves for world peace?
Can you live by being partly you with world peace rather than fully you in a world where the newspaper mostly post about war?
This movie "The Invasion" with Nicole Kidman and Daniel Craig is excellent, how this thoughts comes true in our world. What if a alien spore came and infected to control us like puppets? Excellent actors giving me chills, really convincing.
People talk about freedom, can we sacrifice a part of ourselves for world peace?
Can you live by being partly you with world peace rather than fully you in a world where the newspaper mostly post about war?
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Song of the Day: Breath & Give Me A Sign
Another band I used to listen to long time ago.
Here you go, a fairly new song and a good old.
Here you go, a fairly new song and a good old.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Song of the Day: Lithium & My Immortal
Somehow I managed to rediscover Evanescence, listened through their two albums a couple of times. Also have their second album myself which I bought same week it released.
I don't know if they are active anymore, going to look that up. Enjoy
I don't know if they are active anymore, going to look that up. Enjoy
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing..
I would like to say Happy Valentine's Day but to be honest I'm tired of this too.
I used to hold on to days such as this, somehow this belief disappeared somewhere from about four years ago to today. The ego of the population is making me sick, those who tries hardest is those will never get anything. That's one of the reason I have stopped trying so hard, and it will pass someday.
We should celebrate love everyday instead of making a day to celebrate it. To not be pathetic but I'm only thinking about those who can't celebrate this day, because of very sad reasons.
I'm not used to miss people, for some years to today I've been holding to same people - My family and few more. But those few have lately somehow disappeared during the years, I guess it's the way of life when some come and some go. Right now I just miss my parents, so don't "Happy valentine's day" me.
I never thought I would be like this but I'm giving up kinda much of "me" lately, since it haven't worked out these late years and I believe it's one of the reasons I'm alone right now.
I would like to meet someone else today but I think she's just too busy to see me which she been lately, I have known her for so long and to be honest she never really suprised me once.
Although I'm thinking too much.
I'm simple.
I might be alone but I haven't really lost those I need.
They have disappeared but they are still alive.
I used to hold on to days such as this, somehow this belief disappeared somewhere from about four years ago to today. The ego of the population is making me sick, those who tries hardest is those will never get anything. That's one of the reason I have stopped trying so hard, and it will pass someday.
We should celebrate love everyday instead of making a day to celebrate it. To not be pathetic but I'm only thinking about those who can't celebrate this day, because of very sad reasons.
I'm not used to miss people, for some years to today I've been holding to same people - My family and few more. But those few have lately somehow disappeared during the years, I guess it's the way of life when some come and some go. Right now I just miss my parents, so don't "Happy valentine's day" me.
I never thought I would be like this but I'm giving up kinda much of "me" lately, since it haven't worked out these late years and I believe it's one of the reasons I'm alone right now.
I would like to meet someone else today but I think she's just too busy to see me which she been lately, I have known her for so long and to be honest she never really suprised me once.
Although I'm thinking too much.
I'm simple.
I might be alone but I haven't really lost those I need.
They have disappeared but they are still alive.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Cards of Jinx
I've start to gamble because of my boredom.
I inserted 50euro, play whole day and went up to 180euro and guess what.
I lose them all although I'm playing in 40euro buy-in and 0,5-1euro blinds.
I've got like least few hundred of bad flops.
It's like when I get high hand and get low flop and reverse.
I play my better than my opponents but guessing their luck when I started to lose is just disgusting, they get every card they want.. I mean really every card, I've gotten second best hand all the time and they get the best hand..
Well, it's fun because of the mind-reading ^^
I inserted 50euro, play whole day and went up to 180euro and guess what.
I lose them all although I'm playing in 40euro buy-in and 0,5-1euro blinds.
I've got like least few hundred of bad flops.
It's like when I get high hand and get low flop and reverse.
I play my better than my opponents but guessing their luck when I started to lose is just disgusting, they get every card they want.. I mean really every card, I've gotten second best hand all the time and they get the best hand..
Well, it's fun because of the mind-reading ^^
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Bored..
Been sick of people lately, I hate that I can't enjoy being with people much like before. I'm quite bored of everything at the moment, nothing seem to have a meaning.
People come and go like they want, but when they are in need you and you miss the shot you are an asshole. Obviously people hide when they are in need, cmon.. Because I can read people good doesn't mean I can read someones mind..
I have been watching Death Note again, it feels better than last time I watch it. I actually start to think more like Light because if you had such a overpowered item in our world, anyone would use it. But when he starts to frenzy to counter L, that's kinda wrong. A ruler should always rule with wisdom, if not you miss the whole picture.
I also watch a great movie called "Unstoppable". I'm not gonna write about it so if you want to know more check imdb.com. I really liked it, never thought you could make a movie about a train that good :)
I raid once a week in World of Warcraft but I play much more than that. At the moment I have three characters doing PVP every week and some PVE, my PVE main is nowadays my Priest as Discipline or Shadow. We raid on tuesdays and last night went quite good in the end, a little slow start at Magmaw but after some tries with got him and got other quite easily which we killed before (Omnotron, Maloriak, Atramedes and Halfus).
We tried for the first time on Valiona and Theralion, I really liked that fight and we got them too after four tries.
People come and go like they want, but when they are in need you and you miss the shot you are an asshole. Obviously people hide when they are in need, cmon.. Because I can read people good doesn't mean I can read someones mind..
I have been watching Death Note again, it feels better than last time I watch it. I actually start to think more like Light because if you had such a overpowered item in our world, anyone would use it. But when he starts to frenzy to counter L, that's kinda wrong. A ruler should always rule with wisdom, if not you miss the whole picture.
I also watch a great movie called "Unstoppable". I'm not gonna write about it so if you want to know more check imdb.com. I really liked it, never thought you could make a movie about a train that good :)
I raid once a week in World of Warcraft but I play much more than that. At the moment I have three characters doing PVP every week and some PVE, my PVE main is nowadays my Priest as Discipline or Shadow. We raid on tuesdays and last night went quite good in the end, a little slow start at Magmaw but after some tries with got him and got other quite easily which we killed before (Omnotron, Maloriak, Atramedes and Halfus).
We tried for the first time on Valiona and Theralion, I really liked that fight and we got them too after four tries.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Linkin Park back to Sweden!
Linkin Park is coming back to Sweden, Stockholm 14 June. I missed them last time because I was really short of money, anyone wanna go with me and see them this time? :3
Utada Hikaru
Incredible good live, I really want to see Utada Hikaru live, someday.
I found a quite good remix of Utada Hikaru and Justin Timberlake.
I found a quite good remix of Utada Hikaru and Justin Timberlake.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Song of the Day: Faster
Within Temptation - Faster
One of the new songs from the their new album, it's pretty good although it doesn't sound like old WT.
One of the new songs from the their new album, it's pretty good although it doesn't sound like old WT.
I will never..
Look back, if you let me go this time. I will still be your friend but I will not have you on the top of my priorities, I will only support you as a friend.
I hope you don't come back someday and ask me about this because I will never think of it again, never.
There's a reason why I can't fully trust you because you never say things directly to me, I have never liked code-games this way. One of the reasons I'm so tired of life, people always goes around.
I hope you don't come back someday and ask me about this because I will never think of it again, never.
There's a reason why I can't fully trust you because you never say things directly to me, I have never liked code-games this way. One of the reasons I'm so tired of life, people always goes around.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
You can wait too long
Lately and like always I've been hearing people saying they want/need something. I'm telling you guys out there, if you want/need something you need to try to get it.
Because you can wait too long and some things might dissapear.
Heart can change.
I can be confusing when I think faster than I talk, but what I can get irritated at is people who talks in code. If you want something talk straight to me, talking in code can be funny but there's a line.
Because you can wait too long and some things might dissapear.
Heart can change.
I can be confusing when I think faster than I talk, but what I can get irritated at is people who talks in code. If you want something talk straight to me, talking in code can be funny but there's a line.
TRON Legacy
Couple of days ago I went to cinema with A and we watched TRON Legacy.
We started off with being at her, taking our time to prepare for dinner outside and playing little games meanwhile.
We went to Jensen for dinner, it was pretty good except that we waited very long. We were going for the 21:30 cinema show and we came to Jensen little bit before 20:00, we had to tell them so hurry and we ate in hurry to barely manage to the show. We came to the cinema at 21:30, kinda stressed.. yeah.
The movie was awesome even when I was tired I couldn't miss a single moment in the movie, always thinking: wow! A really beautiful done movie with really strong enviroment and details, the music by "Daft Punk" made it perfect. I strongly recommend this movie to you who's tired of seeing same things over and over again.
8/10 to TRON Legacy
We started off with being at her, taking our time to prepare for dinner outside and playing little games meanwhile.
We went to Jensen for dinner, it was pretty good except that we waited very long. We were going for the 21:30 cinema show and we came to Jensen little bit before 20:00, we had to tell them so hurry and we ate in hurry to barely manage to the show. We came to the cinema at 21:30, kinda stressed.. yeah.
The movie was awesome even when I was tired I couldn't miss a single moment in the movie, always thinking: wow! A really beautiful done movie with really strong enviroment and details, the music by "Daft Punk" made it perfect. I strongly recommend this movie to you who's tired of seeing same things over and over again.
8/10 to TRON Legacy
Suddenly it's not the same anymore
Recently, I mean like half year ago, I seemed to have a lot of friends. Many of them was traveling around the world and I wish I could come along with you guys.
I got a lot new friends since I started to hang out with other people, to be fair I had a really good summer, I just didn't want it to end so fast but soon enough it's summer again.. Although it won't be the same again.
The funny part is, I lost a couple of friends at the end of the year and all of them was the new ones. I'm kind of annoyed because they want you to put them before other but not giving anything back, nothing at all. How is that supposed to work?
I got a couple of old frinds from the time I used to play games a lot, I wish you guys could call me someday, it would be pretty nice.
Loyalty is something hard to find these days, I believe it's probably because relationships can be found so fast and at the same time dissapear suddenly. But I'm really happy with those friends I have left, you are here for me really.. And I wish I'm there for you too.
I got a lot new friends since I started to hang out with other people, to be fair I had a really good summer, I just didn't want it to end so fast but soon enough it's summer again.. Although it won't be the same again.
The funny part is, I lost a couple of friends at the end of the year and all of them was the new ones. I'm kind of annoyed because they want you to put them before other but not giving anything back, nothing at all. How is that supposed to work?
I got a couple of old frinds from the time I used to play games a lot, I wish you guys could call me someday, it would be pretty nice.
Loyalty is something hard to find these days, I believe it's probably because relationships can be found so fast and at the same time dissapear suddenly. But I'm really happy with those friends I have left, you are here for me really.. And I wish I'm there for you too.
Friday, January 14, 2011
From a different angle
As the title says, what I mean is no one ever see things from exactly your angle. Some things might be but never everything, most of all I have been thinking about what you mean to someone.
You can be the whole world for someone but at the same time be nothing for another one, this doesn't matter until the very existance of communication. I have been seeing someone as a very big part of my "world" for long but this person keep seeing me not so important, after a while I'm not very controlled but this anymore, I'm very neutral with this person.
I know I might have done such a act to someone else, and I know this happens because you feel what you want to feel.
I don't know what to believe in anymore, I just want to go with the flow. To be little like old me when I just lived for today and tomorrow, but it's really hard with my daydreaming and dreams at night. I don't know what is what sometimes, I'm confused.
You can be the whole world for someone but at the same time be nothing for another one, this doesn't matter until the very existance of communication. I have been seeing someone as a very big part of my "world" for long but this person keep seeing me not so important, after a while I'm not very controlled but this anymore, I'm very neutral with this person.
I know I might have done such a act to someone else, and I know this happens because you feel what you want to feel.
I don't know what to believe in anymore, I just want to go with the flow. To be little like old me when I just lived for today and tomorrow, but it's really hard with my daydreaming and dreams at night. I don't know what is what sometimes, I'm confused.
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