Recap: 3 June

I went to see X-Men: First Class with my brother D, cousin K, Josef and Z. Started the day with meeting up Z after her work then we hook up with Josef who wanted to check out "Fältöversten", ended up buying some icecream he didn't like (don't remember the flavor).
Shorty after that we went to central and met up with my brother and cousin just before the movie starting, I managed to buy my mineral water "Dragonfruit" although the que was so long.

The movie was really great, I absolutely liked the introduction of the characters. I have always loved these comics but I'm not that into it to know the story of all characters, somehow I knew a little bit about the relationship between Magneto and Professor X.
Although they are enemies today they still respect each other a lot. If you like comics then I recommend you to watch the trailer and the movie, great movie, great deep, great acting!

NextStop -> Linkin Park @ Globen 14 June

Finally, I found someone to go to this concert with! =))

Song of the Day: Vortex

The GazettE - Vortex

Song of the Day: Come Clarity

In Flames - Come Clarity

Song of the Day: Don't Disturb Love

Sammi Cheng - Don't Disturb Love

Recap: 22 May

I went to see my friend Z at T-Centralen, we started with walking to Kungsträdgården and then to Gamla stan (ended up in Sci-Fi Bokhandeln). After a while at the movie and book shelves we walked back to city, we realized we had the same favorite café but sadly they was renovating.
We walked around for a while until I remember a café at Sveavägen around ten minutes away, we got there and I got my hot chocolate (yeah, like usually ^_^) and blue berry pie while Z bought green tea and some kind of chocolate cake.
We walked to cinema "Filmstaden Sergel" to see if there were any interest movie, then I found out that Z likes cars, she keeps suprising me XD So we bought tickets to "Fast and Furious Five". We needed to eat fast so we choosed McDonalds (yeah..) then watch that movie.
This movie was so awesome, you could really feel the cinema tremble when the beautiful or when the heavy battlec drove past, the best movie in the series.
If you like cars or action, I recommend this movie.

Song of the Day: The End of It All

Song of the Day: Selenite

Song of the Day: My Immortal

21 May

I went out with my older brother to meet his friend P, we went along Drottninggatan looking for a place too eat when P suddenly remember a place a bit further away on the same street.
American Bar and Steakhouse is the name, a really nice place and P said their meat was amazing last time he was here. I and my brother ordered each Weiter (300gram entrecôte) and P took a Carpenter (400gram beef), it took a while before our food came after the starter (salad starter included). I wanted my entrecôte medium and it was awesome, really good one. I think they are more generous than other restaurant because this 300gram was much more than normally 300gram at other places, so I think they might have added some few grams before making it since they know it will shrink.
After a great dinner we went to cinema to see when the movies were going to show, we had to wait least over an hour for next show so we skipped it and he drove us home before the went home himself.
If you love steak then I really recommend this place :)

PS. I have pierced my ears with 3.2mm holes on each ear, it's bigger than normally because I'm going to stretch it little more.

Song of the Day: Faint

Song of the Day: Ignorance

On Stranger Tides

After fixing some papers and stuffs about my bad hearing, I decided to work a little today. Later tonight after work I went to cinema with my brother to watch Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1298650/) 21:20 at cinema Sergel.

It's a very funny, enjoyable and mystery fourth movie of Pirates of the Carribean series. Jack Sparrow is once again back on track, drunk in problems as usually. But this time he's alone, without his beloved Black Pearl and guided by rumors about the Fountain of Youth, why is he seaching for this legendary spring? Maybe he is getting old?
He encounters zombies, mermaids, the very feared Blackbeard himself and of course Barbossa during this journey. Taking you through beautiful enviroments which makes me vacation-sick and you will find the truth about our dear Cpt. Jack Sparrow!
One more thing, there will be a really small movie clip after the ending-text.

Song of tthe Day: Pray

Song of the Day: Acceptable Losses

Some people will stay true to you forever, always there when you are in need although they might sacrifice some of their own. They don't mind as long as you try to see the big picture.

Some people will try their best for you and for themselves, they might not always succeed but that doesn't mean they are bad. People may have hard times themselves, it's not wrong to have yourself as top priority sometimes.

Some people will just flow with the wave, take whatever they need and left everything else. The truth is, these people can not even stay honest to themself. They don't spend anything on other than themself, they fear everyone because they fear themselves. They don't bother to strain because they always think: the wave will(might) change direction anyway.

People will come, some will stay and some will go.

Song of the Day: September

Song of the Day: What About My Dreams

This is my new Eurovision favorite, I really hope she sings better today and win :)

Song of the Day: Rinzler

TRON Legacy soundtrack - Rinzler

10 May

My order has finally arrived.. to Stockholm airport Arlanda but I've been busy today and gonna be busy tomorrow aswell when my friend arrives, so DHL gonna deliver the package to me at thursday after 14:00!
I saw my friend Lo today, I don't even remember last time I met him and I can't remember if it's because it been too long or just me keep forgetting things. *BIG sight*
Anyway, we went to Kungsträdgården and he bought us icecream and we walked toward Old Town. The icecream was so huge and I felt so full when I finally ate it up, next stop was Sci-Fi Bokhandeln. We spent most time at the movie shelves and realized how many stupid movies there is, if you don't believe me you better take a look around there XD
We both went home after that.

I made a necklace with stuffs I bought last week while watching Jason Bourne trilogy, I remember I liked the first movie but haven't really got to continue this trilogy until I realized I had it in my external hard disk.
I started over with the first chapter and couldn't stop until I saw them all. I really like the style they make these movies, a lot of close-up combat, adrenaline chasing, just a very smart made movie.
It's hard to realize that Matt Damon is a excellent action actor, you can really feel him into the skin, feel he bleed, feel him confused but still controlled. Another good reality military movie including him is "Green Zone", yet another well done movie.
I usually don't like this kind of movie because they get too political, Green Zone is a bit but still showing us the other side at the same time. I long for more Matt Damon movies really, he's under-rated and deserves much more attention.

PS: I badly need a camera..

NextStop -> Arvikafestivalen

Wiee, finally bought ticket to Arvikafestivalen at 14-16 july!
Least one funny event this summer, absolutely hoping for more :)

Song of the Day: Call Me When You're Sober

Under the sky

The sky went so cloudy
And I could feel the ground beneath growing colder
I can’t find my heart among this debris
I don’t really know what I’m looking for

When I stand at the edge, full of desperation
All I know is that you’re gone
I don’t want to remember all the sadness
I wish the winds blew the stars away

As they covered you, I wasn’t breathing
I could no longer feel my chest, it collapsed
I tried to stand up but I had no direction
I was too blinded to see
As they took you away, I’m no longer alive
I could no longer feel my chest, it collapsed
I looked into the hallway
It seemed never-ending

The night slipped into the sky
Soon through the window to me
I was used to me my very own protection
So slow, I was so wrong

Does it matter what I feel
It feels empty anyway
I was used to me my very own protection
So slow, I was so wrong

When I stand at the edge, full of desperation
All I know is that you’re gone
I don’t want to remember all the sadness
I wish the winds blew the stars away

Hold on a second, stay with me
I don’t want to apologize
I want you to catch me
Don’t go, don’t let me go

//Nakigahara

©

COPYRIGHT !?

Song of the Day: "What If" You "Sing To Me"

Lisa Miskovsky - What If


Lisa Miskovsky - Sing To Me

Yay!

I have order some clothes from South Korea, they should be here in couple of weeks. Sadly, one shirt was sold out but I got other nice stuffs :D
I bought a tie some days ago but I can't find a nice picture from their website :(

I have realized how allergic I can be sometimes and tested nose-spray for the first time today, was kinda scary but it helped! I couldn't really use my nose for like two days and ended up with that solution, normally I just eat some allergic pills..

Master Baneling..

I've been playing of Starcraft 2, it goes pretty well. I'm on Diamond league at the moment ranked 19. I'm aiming for Master league, which is next level and the one after is Grand Master league which will take too much time to get there so I don't even bother XD
I've been training against a friend Nygi, tho he doesn't like cheese or robot-bay units, so I can only train late game Zerg vs Protoss.

Also ordered some clothes which should be in my postbox in max 2 weeks, new clothes is tumb up!

Happy Easter

I haven't painted or been chasing any eggs, but I think I will do these kind of games for my kids in the future. I went out last week looking for some stuffs, I found shoes and a t-shirt with swordfish print :)
These are my shoes, they are absolutely perfect. They are long-walking friendly, nice design and fortunely cheap as 25euro (I thought them of being around 50eurp at least) so it was a great deal!



I was at a bowling/bar yesterday where my friend Björn had a gig, it was great although the scene was above the bowling track but too far away from the audience which sat behind, one floor higher up behind the bowling players. Would be better if it was some kind of balcony which made the audience closer to the scene! :D

Song of the Day: Iridescent

Linkin Park have made one song for each Transformers movie and it wasn't random at all to hear them making another one for the last movie of the trilogy. Newly they presented that they goonna pick a song from their latest album, one of the best songs from the that album called "Iridescent".
Unfortunely this song don't have a video yet but I guess they gonna make one now when it became a song for the official sountrack!

Sunny days

Finally the sun has come, and is going to stay from now on until the winter. I haven't been out so much yet, I hope I gonna go out tomorrow and get some sunshine.
I haven't been longing for the sun so much like this year, the last part of last year and beginning of this year have been quite heavy. So it feels good to some kind of start over, for good and bad reasons.

Good night everyone, I'm going to sleep before the sun goes up again.

Song of the Day: FFVII Advent Children

I watched Final Fantasy VII Advent Children again, it was much better than I remember and when I did pay attention this time I understood the whole story XD
I've been listening to the soundtracks for a while, that's why I had to watch it again. Final Fantasy always deliver great music, they don't only pay attention to the graphic in the games.

Here's two songs from soundtrack of Final Fantasy VII Advent Children

Aerith no Theme

Tifa no Theme

These songs reminds me of how easily things can turn around, how something that's everything for you can suddenly becomes was. When a heart breaks free from where it thought to belong, some will never be completely free, some flies away, higher than ever.
I was a person who loved memories, items from good and bad memories, I believed they made me alive, they made me live on.
I want to hold onto to memories forever, there's no reason to let them go away. The moment only last back then but the memories are forever, eternal. I've stopped chasing these long past moments, I let them be memories that slowly become forgotten. Although they are forgotten, there's more of them inside us than we think because they make us the one we are. They are like scars that healed and then become a part of us, a part we can't see.

There's a lot of times I wish I should have said some, I wish I was brave enough to hold onto these moments, I have let them go away too easily. There's so much I wish to erase from the past five years, more for other good than for my own.
I'm fully certain that I have hurt so much more than I have given although I'm thinking about myself as second, I can't love myself, not more than I love other.

Song of the Day: To Zanarkand

Song of the Day: Break Down

Girugamesh - Break Down
Seen them live :) but they seem to make calmer songs nowdays :(

Song of the Day: Bathroom

Song of the Day: 21 Guns

I'm listening to Green Day again, they sound better than I remember :)
Another band I write into my "have-to-see-live-list"!

Song of the Day: Last Song

Gackt - Last Song
I heard some rumors about him coming to Stockholm next year for some kind of Convent, I hope this is true so I can see him for once! :D

Tomorrow..

At last I'm going to do university test(högskoleprovet) tomorrow from 8am to 4pm, I'm feeling fairly confident. I went to akademi bokhandeln to buy some pencils, rubber and a philosophy book for my philosophy class.


I also bought a watch because I don't have one since about 5 years back.
I need it tomorrow because the test wards doesn't guarantee having a clock, it's nice to know how much time passed and how much you have left.

Incoming Live: Lisa Miskovsky

Lisa Miskovsky is playing in Stockholm 10th April and in Uppsala 12th May, I would love to go to least one of these live plays. Anyone?

New bed stuffs

Been looking for some duvet cover set for a while, ended up buying this one from hemtex.
Next up is to buy a couple sets with colors, haven't found any yet and I think I need to check Ikea.. That's so far to go and I need to find someone who wanna look around there with me :D

Song of the Day: Running Scared

Ell & Nikki - Running Scared (Eurovision Azerbaijan)
One of the few good songs this year, I really hope this song wins!

Song of the Day: Burning In the Skies

Linkin Park - Burning in the skies

Song of the Day: Run Devil Run

Girls' Generation - Run Devil Run

Skype party!?

I have been so tired about mostly every game, I have been thinking about buying a strategy game called "Heroes of Newerth" to play with some friends and so did I yesterday.
Been playing quite a lot through LAN or skype, kinda funny actually, I'm just annoyed at the new heroes and items since when I played at the final beta.

I play with some old gamer friends I used to play Defense of the Ancient and World of Warcraft (LAN or least on same server).
Oh well, gonna go to it café with one of them tomorrow morning :)
Sweet dreams!

Disasters

I haven't been here for a while, some stuffs happen in real life and I haven't been able to sit by the computer.

First off, it's actually a very big deal. I have been praying for Japan since the earthquake, people doesn't deserve that, no one do. May people rest in peace.
About the nuclear reactor, things happens, it's not supposed to come a 15meter wave into your city. Unfortunely our world haven't invested enough into other kind of energy production, and by the scale we are at now we have to realize we need nuclear reactors.
You don't recycle and spend way too much electricity (luxury) but you don't want to have nuclear energy, it just doesn't make sense. You can't eat cakes witout getting fat.
With such a reaction you need to realize how little you actually control, your media-freaks. The media is turning you the way they want to, try to think out of the box. We always knew these things could happen, always.

What about all the stuff we drop into the ocean? Simply we won't think about it until there's no more marine animals left, the water poisoned enough so we can't swim in it and THEN we will realize "oh no, it's not good to dump shit into the water"..

"Give me strength to accept what I can't change, courage to change what I can and wisdom to see the difference"

The Invasion

I love biology when it comes to cells and virus, how easily we can be infected and what could happen if we get infected? *Augh* I'm tired of zombie movies and I have one question about them: If they only are survival instincts from brainstem, how come they don't start eating each other to survive rather than chasing someone who actually can run fast..?

This movie "The Invasion" with Nicole Kidman and Daniel Craig is excellent, how this thoughts comes true in our world. What if a alien spore came and infected to control us like puppets? Excellent actors giving me chills, really convincing.
People talk about freedom, can we sacrifice a part of ourselves for world peace?
Can you live by being partly you with world peace rather than fully you in a world where the newspaper mostly post about war?

Song of the Day: 20 More Miles

Trying to learn to sing this Soilwork song :)

Song of the Day: Breath & Give Me A Sign

Another band I used to listen to long time ago.
Here you go, a fairly new song and a good old.

Song of the Day: Lithium & My Immortal

Somehow I managed to rediscover Evanescence, listened through their two albums a couple of times. Also have their second album myself which I bought same week it released.
I don't know if they are active anymore, going to look that up. Enjoy

Song of the Day: Pledge

The Gazette latest single "Pledge"

But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing..

I would like to say Happy Valentine's Day but to be honest I'm tired of this too.
I used to hold on to days such as this, somehow this belief disappeared somewhere from about four years ago to today. The ego of the population is making me sick, those who tries hardest is those will never get anything. That's one of the reason I have stopped trying so hard, and it will pass someday.
We should celebrate love everyday instead of making a day to celebrate it. To not be pathetic but I'm only thinking about those who can't celebrate this day, because of very sad reasons.

I'm not used to miss people, for some years to today I've been holding to same people - My family and few more. But those few have lately somehow disappeared during the years, I guess it's the way of life when some come and some go. Right now I just miss my parents, so don't "Happy valentine's day" me.

I never thought I would be like this but I'm giving up kinda much of "me" lately, since it haven't worked out these late years and I believe it's one of the reasons I'm alone right now.
I would like to meet someone else today but I think she's just too busy to see me which she been lately, I have known her for so long and to be honest she never really suprised me once.
Although I'm thinking too much.
I'm simple.

I might be alone but I haven't really lost those I need.
They have disappeared but they are still alive.

Cards of Jinx

I've start to gamble because of my boredom.
I inserted 50euro, play whole day and went up to 180euro and guess what.
I lose them all although I'm playing in 40euro buy-in and 0,5-1euro blinds.
I've got like least few hundred of bad flops.
It's like when I get high hand and get low flop and reverse.
I play my better than my opponents but guessing their luck when I started to lose is just disgusting, they get every card they want.. I mean really every card, I've gotten second best hand all the time and they get the best hand..

Well, it's fun because of the mind-reading ^^

Song of the Day

Bored..

Been sick of people lately, I hate that I can't enjoy being with people much like before. I'm quite bored of everything at the moment, nothing seem to have a meaning.
People come and go like they want, but when they are in need you and you miss the shot you are an asshole. Obviously people hide when they are in need, cmon.. Because I can read people good doesn't mean I can read someones mind..

I have been watching Death Note again, it feels better than last time I watch it. I actually start to think more like Light because if you had such a overpowered item in our world, anyone would use it. But when he starts to frenzy to counter L, that's kinda wrong. A ruler should always rule with wisdom, if not you miss the whole picture.

I also watch a great movie called "Unstoppable". I'm not gonna write about it so if you want to know more check imdb.com. I really liked it, never thought you could make a movie about a train that good :)

I raid once a week in World of Warcraft but I play much more than that. At the moment I have three characters doing PVP every week and some PVE, my PVE main is nowadays my Priest as Discipline or Shadow. We raid on tuesdays and last night went quite good in the end, a little slow start at Magmaw but after some tries with got him and got other quite easily which we killed before (Omnotron, Maloriak, Atramedes and Halfus).
We tried for the first time on Valiona and Theralion, I really liked that fight and we got them too after four tries.

Linkin Park back to Sweden!

Linkin Park is coming back to Sweden, Stockholm 14 June. I missed them last time because I was really short of money, anyone wanna go with me and see them this time? :3

Utada Hikaru

Incredible good live, I really want to see Utada Hikaru live, someday.



I found a quite good remix of Utada Hikaru and Justin Timberlake.

Song of the Day: Faster

Within Temptation - Faster

One of the new songs from the their new album, it's pretty good although it doesn't sound like old WT.

I will never..

Look back, if you let me go this time. I will still be your friend but I will not have you on the top of my priorities, I will only support you as a friend.
I hope you don't come back someday and ask me about this because I will never think of it again, never.
There's a reason why I can't fully trust you because you never say things directly to me, I have never liked code-games this way. One of the reasons I'm so tired of life, people always goes around.

I would..

I would turn into a stone bridge and endure 500 years of wind and rain.

You can wait too long

Lately and like always I've been hearing people saying they want/need something. I'm telling you guys out there, if you want/need something you need to try to get it.

Because you can wait too long and some things might dissapear.
Heart can change.

I can be confusing when I think faster than I talk, but what I can get irritated at is people who talks in code. If you want something talk straight to me, talking in code can be funny but there's a line.

TRON Legacy

Couple of days ago I went to cinema with A and we watched TRON Legacy.
We started off with being at her, taking our time to prepare for dinner outside and playing little games meanwhile.
We went to Jensen for dinner, it was pretty good except that we waited very long. We were going for the 21:30 cinema show and we came to Jensen little bit before 20:00, we had to tell them so hurry and we ate in hurry to barely manage to the show. We came to the cinema at 21:30, kinda stressed.. yeah.

The movie was awesome even when I was tired I couldn't miss a single moment in the movie, always thinking: wow! A really beautiful done movie with really strong enviroment and details, the music by "Daft Punk" made it perfect. I strongly recommend this movie to you who's tired of seeing same things over and over again.

8/10 to TRON Legacy

Suddenly it's not the same anymore

Recently, I mean like half year ago, I seemed to have a lot of friends. Many of them was traveling around the world and I wish I could come along with you guys.
I got a lot new friends since I started to hang out with other people, to be fair I had a really good summer, I just didn't want it to end so fast but soon enough it's summer again.. Although it won't be the same again.
The funny part is, I lost a couple of friends at the end of the year and all of them was the new ones. I'm kind of annoyed because they want you to put them before other but not giving anything back, nothing at all. How is that supposed to work?
I got a couple of old frinds from the time I used to play games a lot, I wish you guys could call me someday, it would be pretty nice.

Loyalty is something hard to find these days, I believe it's probably because relationships can be found so fast and at the same time dissapear suddenly. But I'm really happy with those friends I have left, you are here for me really.. And I wish I'm there for you too.

From a different angle

As the title says, what I mean is no one ever see things from exactly your angle. Some things might be but never everything, most of all I have been thinking about what you mean to someone.
You can be the whole world for someone but at the same time be nothing for another one, this doesn't matter until the very existance of communication. I have been seeing someone as a very big part of my "world" for long but this person keep seeing me not so important, after a while I'm not very controlled but this anymore, I'm very neutral with this person.
I know I might have done such a act to someone else, and I know this happens because you feel what you want to feel.

I don't know what to believe in anymore, I just want to go with the flow. To be little like old me when I just lived for today and tomorrow, but it's really hard with my daydreaming and dreams at night. I don't know what is what sometimes, I'm confused.

My Christmas?

I was working this day but it was kinda good to be workday, I got christmas feast at the job and not everyone gets that? ^^

Late Christmas Post

Merry Christmas, I gonna make a different post than usual christmas posts you have seen all over the world.
Should be 2nd but I take this one first because it's "closer" to my reality..

1st: It's more of less snowstorms in many countries like Sweden, during this our travel network breaks and people start to complain. Of course, we should be prepared but if we aren't prepared enough I just ask you to show to patience. I'm sick of hearing complains that your train is late, you can't get to dinner and so on.
Why did you show up so late, like last minutewise?
If you ask yourself when you are waiting for you train, who is out there making this network smooth any other day? Have you ever think of these people, THEY are making your day without you notice. These people work to make you able to celebrate your christmas by sacrificing their own, they sacrifice for the greater good of this countries.
As well as people working within care/nursing, these people also works at "your" important day. That they work doesn't mean it's not important to them, they just see the big picture.
And when your train is stuck somewhere or the rails are frozen, think about those shoveling people. If it really was able to do with only machines you wouldn't stand there complaining, it's actually a lot human shoveling and if you didn't know the rails isn't short. You are inside a warm train station when they are outside in minus 20*C, they do that because NO ONE else would do it.
How would the picture look like if EVERYONE didn't work this day? I believe you would be sitting at home and looking into a corner that suits you best.

2nd: I wrote on facebook: Merry Christmas! Take a moment and think about those who can't celebrate cause of unfair reasons ex: children without family.

There's a lot of people not only children out there that also wants to celebrate festivals like christmas but many, too many don't have the opportunity to. Once again, these reasons are so many and to be honest a lot of them are easily solved. These people doesn't even wish much and still they get like nothing.
Please do like me, donate money or somehow help people who can't live like us. I don't mean sharing belief, I mean being able to choose what to believe in.

Song of the Day: 無緣罪

I newly discovered this singer by a friend, I think she's pretty good :)

Vincy Chan (泳兒) with song 無緣罪

Fix you

I almost forgot this band called Coldplay, here's a song I really love.
Stuffs goes the way it wants and you only hope it goes little more like you want.

If you need me, you all know where to find me.
I will try my best for you, as I always been doing.

Song of the Day: 明天以後

Raymond Lam & Vincy Chan

Mandarin music video:


Cantonese live:

Little Birthday Party

I couldn't sleep until 05:00 today and I slept to about 13:00.. Been playing some World of Warcraft, at the moment I'm trying to get some PvP gear on my druid Numeria (85) and leveling my gnome warrior Danti (84).

But! Today my elder brother having a little birthday party at the restaurant, so I will soon be on my way there. Although I won't be there for long, going to work at 08:00 tomorrow.

My friend Björn is back from his asian trip, he was in Vietnam for some months studying and ended the trip with four days in Hong Kong. I went to Playz with him and some other friends, after playing some hour we ate hamburgers and walked home (yes, in this snowing winder).
He linked me a song they played a lot in Vietnam and it's stuck in my head XD

Give me DNS..

I hate when my internet dies and says: We can not find a new DNS at the moment..

December Birthdays

Happy Birthday my little brother and elder brother!

I went to webhallen and bought some stuffs to him with my friend Josefine, who was in Stockholm for a jobinterview. We tried to find some more gifts for my brothers (my elder brother birthday is today), and some for christmas but we didn't find any.
Then we decided to drink some hot chocolate to warm us and wait until her train arrived.

Today I went with my little brother to find something for my elder brother, at the end we bought three clothes from HM.

Dinner at East (13 dec)

It was a really amazing dinner at a restaurant called East, my brother old work, we got a table in a separated room (a little VIP). I'd like the local but not the newer design they have, they had a lot of dots everywhere in different sizes. I know how dots work, they are really hard to handle, I mean how many stuffs with dots actually look good?

The buffet consisted of random east asian dishes from China, Thailand, Japan and Korea. I started with some sushi and sashimi then I went to some noodles, gyoza, egg rolls, fried octopus. Unfortonely there was a lot of hot dishes and I can't eat so many hot dishes (yeah, I'm a weakling) but I tried them out. The only hot dish I liked was a thai soup else I ate a lot of noodles, gyoza, rols and fried stuffs :)
Finally, I ate a lot of sweets like panacotta, small chocolate cakes and icecreams.

Thanks my dear little brother for a nice evening.

Song of the Day: Bleeding Love

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

But somethin' happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground, found somethin' true

Trying hard not to hear, but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt

Uhm, christmas already?

Hm, this year have really fly by fast. When I think about what I've done this year, it seems to be little but compared to where I was before I've gone far, very far.
I studied at spring and got a practice at a short-time home for disabled teenagers. After that my teacher recommended me to a summerjob as a carer and I worked there from june to august, jumping in as back-up carer nowdays.
I worked a month with the swedish election, lately I started to work as personal assistant.
As career point of view, it just getting better.

How about love? Don't ask me about that, it have been messy and.. well, there's nothing to talk about. I just leave it be at moment, seems like it's the best way right now.

Ow well, I wasn't really going to talk about this! I'm going to christmas dinner with my family today at my little brother old work, East. We are off to go soon, I hope the food is good :3

I don't have any new year promises for next year yet, but I know I made most for this year at least :)

5 = 2?

Well, I'm work now, I should be sleeping but I can't. So I'm playing little WoW, it says the restart is 05:00 but Argent Dawn EU died already at 02:00.. What am I going to do?

I'm having watch so I can sleep, I already have a "phone" that will ring if I'm needed..

Like earlier yesterday morning when I was on my way to work, SL (Stockholm subway) said the next train was incoming around 1min. That was the longest 1min I've ever seen, took around 15min before it came, so yes I came late to my job -.-

And now I read that the WoW servers are supposed to be down for 15min, passed 34mins so far.. XD I think someone sent a rat to the servers and killed the cables! Damn gnomes, they so really deserve this quest called "gnomebliteration".

I don't understand

I can more or less understand people, but I've never been sure about you..
I don't understand you..
Anyway, you shouldn't cry because of me..

Song of the Day: Calm Envy

The Gazette - Calm Envy

I found one with romanji and english subs

Song of the Day: White Flag

Dido - White Flag

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All I was then will be there still
I'll let it pass and hold my tongue
And you will think that I've moved on

Heartless

Everything is going fine at the moment, I got a new job as personal assistant with 24hour workdays including sleep. It feels really good and I gonna start at sunday/monday.

I've been tired, both mentally and physical but I can still do stuffs pretty good, I don't know why. Then I can't sleep and when I sleep I sleep like normal O_O

And about "love", I just want to be heartless for awhile. What I mean with that is I'm going to leave my heart somewhere (I know the mind controls love, but it sounds better by saying heart :)
Because right now, I'm not in mood to think too much about it. After couple of years letting stuffs end up what I believe is right, lately I've been thinking: "Do it good or don't bother do it at all". But I'm back to chapter one, I will leave this for awhile and if it's meant to be then my heart will be revealed by you. I don't have the courage to ask you, it feels unfair, I don't fear anything except however losing you again.

Except all this, I'm longing to do it good at my new job and I'm longing for World of Warcraft: Cataclysm. Gonna hurry to work as a waiter today, see you all later!

2 0 1 0 - 1 2 - 0 7

Song of the Day: My left eye sees the ghost

Sammi Cheng - My left eye sees the ghost

Live version (it's the same song but I don't know why they have different titles >_<)

Video version

Guildwars 2

I'd play alot of Guildwars, I like the soft playstyle and deep storyline, a little bit like the "Diablo" series by Blizzard. I was introduced by A at the time she didn't start with World of Warcraft yet, we played it for awhile and it was always relaxing.

I really like the way you can config your character look, a little more than you can do in WoW. I like the skill system when you can only use X amount of skills at the same time which gives plenty of combinations.
I did like World of Warcraft to insert this craft system too, all items shouldn't be crafted by players and it shouldn't just be direct drop either. By gathering and crafted by NPC, it's somewhere in the middle.

With different setup of skills for each players, gives a great difference between players although you play the same class. You can contribute this however you want and I was very happy with it.
I'm really longing for this free MMORPG, they really kick out all those fee required MMOs that fails out there! I haven't played GW2 at all but I really hope they kinda stay to their own visions, and not doing like everyone which just make a more expensive "WoW" but still worse or just making good graphic but totally skip the player experience.

Song of the Day: MK Ultra

Muse - MK Ultra

Remember, it's always complicated

Song of the Day: In the Mirror

Twisted Machine - In the Mirror

Watching myself in the mirror
The face makes me fear
In the darkness I can't fall asleep
Only to wipe the tears
Anxious mood slowly takes
To the edge of the precipice
On the face of tears
Time is leaving trace

Song of the Day: Naraku

The Gazette - Naraku

Things I'd like to buy!?

Things I want to buy, but I don't really have place for them at the moment. Maybe, I can buy some of them?

If I bought all glass and cups I'm in love with, my house would be made of them!
6 for 49SEK


A really smart and simple designed bed, you can use it as bunk or double bed!
But do cost 2295SEK, is that much? Need to look around! ^^


I can found pretty cans!
A set of 3 different sizes for 35SEK

Song of the Day: Be Yourself

Audioslave - Be Yourself

At the moment I give myself and some people out there this song.
Try to get some sleep, bad sleep during a long period can damage your brain making your memory bad for a example!

I had a call today from a job, they want to interview me on monday :)

Even when you've paid enough
Been pulled apart or been held up
With every single memory of good or bad
Faces of luck
Don't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose

Song of the Day: Where Do We Draw The Line

Poets of the Fall - Where Do We Draw The Line

I'm little bit confused about my life at the moment, I want to do what I feel for.
Although I'm doing good things, they also have consequences.
Like something I heard before: If you can choose, choose wisely.

So why do we keep up this charade
How do we tell apart the time to leave from the time to wait

Song of the Day: Tears and Rainbows

Olivia Lufkin - Tears and Rainbows

A really calm and wonderful song, I usually listen to this one when I want to sleep :)

Come be as one
Come be as one
And fall in love
In love, in love, in love

Long time no see my friend

Today I woke up around 2pm, ate some lunch and went out around 4pm. I was a little bit nervous, however, I met my friend Lon that I haven't seen for like a year! We went to drink some coffee (I bought my hot chocolate as usual), we talked about what we been doing lately.
After awhile we went to webhallen to buy Civilization V and we went home. It takes him around an hour to school so he was kinda tired ^^ Well yeah, I would have been too.

It's always nice to see friends again, to see them being well :)

Priestess Namida

I've wanted to make a priest for awhile, but hybrids/healers wasn't good at leveling. It goes really slow if you don't choose the damage talent tree, I prefer to play something than damage dealer if I can.
So finally, 4.0 was released and the new talent system is amazing. You get a early taste of the talent tree as level 10 by awarding a "specialization skill", the talent tree is also not complicated like before, it's simple pick what you want.

Here's a picture of my priestess Namida.

I'm a Draenei Priest, Discipline, I love the skills "penance" and "archangel" that gives you wings on use :)
It's feels more new character (no matter alt or new to WoW) friendly with the new talent tree, you can relax and doesn't need to be afraid of choosing wrong class or wait too long before you can play you class for real.

Song of the Day: Endless Love

Jackie Chan & Kim Hee Seon - Endless Love

Song from movie "The Myth", a little more serious Jackie Chan in a sweet love story. I found a video with subtitles and karaoke!

The love in our hearts is the only never changing myth

Song of the Day: Locking Up the Sun

Poets of the Fall - Locking Up the Sun

Volunteers to face the fears, can we be sensible

iihh!

I think I need to go to my skin doctor again, when I woke up I just realized the skin around mouth and cheek was really dry. I hurt a little bit when I almost fully opened my mouth, some really small papercuts it seemed. Never happened like this before, when I usually get dry my whole body gets dry at fairly same level.

Like I always say, well, it will be fine. And yes, I don't too long now before I see a doctor!

Song of the Day: Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Leona Lewis - Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Cos all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Late night cinema

Well, I went to cinema with my brother after saturday work, so called "night cinema". We decided to watch Saw 3D because I wasn't in mood to watch Due Date.
The movie had a really powerful introduction and after that someone in the cinema screams: What the hell have you tricked me into!? I guess not everyone knew what kind of movies the Saw series is.
I'm not in mood to do a presentation, I can only recommend you to see this movie if you have watched earlier chapters and liked it. Those who haven't seen any Saw, I recommend you to at least watch the first one before you watch this one. It might be good as first time too, but I believe it's much better if you seen this kind before.

I read somewhere that Chester (singer in the band: Linkin Park) was acting in this movie, it was quite funny to know that's him when you see him in the movie ^_^ I guess alot there didn't have any clue who that guy was, maybe a random?

Song of the Day: Undisclosed Desires

Muse - Undisclosed Desires

I want to recognise your beauty's not just a mask

I care about you

I don't care about my stuffs
I care about you, because I'm your friend
Take care

I'm not perfect, neither are you

Sometimes it seems hard to love someone, is it true love to let them be when you are afraid to hurt them when you confront them?
How far can you go being honest? I believe you often believe your opinion about dit and dat is right, when you see things scaled in two you miss alot, you often miss the most important point in that matter. Many people likes to hear good or bad, but I have found out many things can't be sorted into these two selections. Like if someone ask you if that person looks good with those clothes, many people just say either excellent or ugly. They seem to be straight honest, but they don't know what looks good or bad, can you truly decide that so fast?

Well, I'm always a fool. I never lie, I'm always honest. So when I for example say something looks good it looks better than neutral which is better than bad, some people believe I'm not honest but I just have a larger scale of opinions.

Another example is democracy, when you do your speak of what your party stands for. Most of these party don't have any high level in cooperate, they mostly say how stupid other people are and how smart they are. For me it just sounds like another kid fight, think about it. When the election is over they still poke each other in the eyes and doesn't want to cooperate, they prolly want the country best but are they doing it? If you really want your country best you accept your win or loss and cooperate if needed to find solutions instead of poking each other half of the time.

There's few things that can make me mad and angry, but it doesn't mean I don't have the right to be. Often (almost every time) I get angry, people just snatch me and say I'm negative etc but they do have the right to be without anyone to complain.
Tho I easily get frustrated and can hold my frustration quite long before ending up endlessly mad, I hate being helpless and that is my biggest reason I become frustrated.
Let me help. I know how I am myself, I sometimes become a shell, and I need help although that happens. So maybe, something works out?
Well, good night, a long day tomorrow for me..
A rose for tomorrow.

Song of the Day: Chizuru

The Gazette - Chizuru

One of my favorite song ever and once again I knew this song on bass
I really like how emotional and powerful this song is

Another night

I've been looking for some works, and like usually I don't find many interesting enough. I mean, I can work with quite alot. Give me something to do! :)

Song of the Day: Hysteria

Muse - Hysteria

I love the bass intro and I actually knew how to play this song once.
Feels like I should relearn it, will take little time since I knew it once :)

Song of the Day: Waiting for the End

Linkin Park - Waiting for the End

This was not what I had planned
It's out of my control

Returner

I've been away for long, I've been busy and a little bit tired of everything.
I worked as sorter at the swedish election on september, after that I've been traveling a little bit outside Stockholm. Yeah, that's what I been doing.
I bought some new clothes like a scarf, two t-shirts and two hoodies but still I haven't found any shoes, I need shoes. I realized most of my clothes are black, gray?
I like those colors but I want more colors so the scarf is like full white, blue, red lines. One of the hoodies is red and black. When it comes to t-shirts I like it simple colored with a motive and even with this simple request most t-s cost around 30euro!? So after like couple of days I finally found a gray one with striped rabbit motive and a white one with a boat leaking a skull with the text "Stop pollutioning our seas before it is too late", both of them are typical me ^_^

I haven't been playing games lately, World of Warcraft is lagging as the new patch came "prepare for cataclysm!". I already pre-ordered a collector's edition when my economy is little better, well.. I'm not only after that pet, I like the artwork book etc. I'm also thinking about buying a computer so I can play some new games like Dragon Age 2, the reason I'm unsure is because I don't want to spend all my money, so if I manage to get a work somewhere for least a month then I gonna buy a computer. Currently I'm part-time working at my parents restaurant, I will be very happy if you came by, just call me and see if I can work the day you comin =)